How Buttersweet lost her 'butt' and then built some

http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?post=40_things_to_try_when_you_dont_want_to_work_out

i feel so down today, so down

 

well, the thing is, working out used to help, but now it doesn't. did 20 min HIIT this morning, felt like crap afterwards. it's either that i'm starting to miss my bf badly, or it's the south wind Jugo. It's like Santa Ana wind in California, and man it drives me crazy. Makes everyone wanna kill everyone else

31/90
HIIT in the morning

didn't do legs yesterday. should do it today. i have to make myself, why not attempt to make one more perfect week this month

 

30/90

did legs this morning instead of yesterday afternoon.
will do core and cardio in the afternoon. maybe this change in my routine will make things better.
cannot pin where the problem is

 

you're right.
and i did my cardio in the afternoon. didn't do core though, simply was too tired.
today is chest day. it's sunny and i feel ok.

 

ok, so, i went to bed after work to have a nap. woke up terribly tired. thought of every possible excuse not to do chest. started doing it. did 20 min and realized i had a fever and an inflamed throat.
had a shower, had some paracetamol, had tea and cookies (since sick people have to be treated nice to feel better) and went to bed.
i feel down. maybe it's this cold, maybe it's just autumn blues, maybe it's the fact i'm broke again, but most probably it's the cookies.
i tracked down every single thing i ate this week and realized i've been cheating more, and of course, it's all sugar protein intake has been lower than normal this week, although i'd get my cottage cheese for breakfast or eggs.
but i had regular past and bread instead of whole grain, and i had too much coffe. i'd have 3 cups by noon
so, i know i should get back to my super strict diet thing, but i seem to not have the srenght, i simply can't force myself to start, to do it again. i'm just so fed up with all the regulations in my life wight now, but it's not wise to losen up with the food, is it?
i mean, ok, so i wouldn't eat fast food, i simply don't have the money to eat out, ihave to cook and cook healthy, but i enjoy a cup of tea with cookies so much what's the harm in that?

help.

 

i don't know what to do, i really don't. diet is about 80% clean. low on calories. but exercise is fine. apart from yesterday, but i really was ill.

I haven't had any of their products in a long time
they're fine, but it's mass production, and it still tastes good, but, they're very old fashioned. not much has changed since i was a kid. not even with how they package things
the best stuff in my opinion: griotte
http://www.google.com/images?client=safari&rls=en&q=griotte&oe=UTF-8&hl=en&sa=X&oi=image_result_group
it's the best cherry liqueur with an actual cherry fruit filled chocolate candy i've ever had, and i had some pretty great ones in Belgium.
chocolate coated wafers (Tortica) are also perfect. my American friends who come to Croatia become addicted to these, and Karlovacko beer

28/90
didn't do cardio this morning, still feel a bit weak from last night. should do legs in the afternoon

 

The weekend was terrible, since I spent it in bad with a cold and terrible toothache (wisdom), so, all together I did 2 lifting and 3 cardio workouts last week. Pathetic. At least it's better than last year when at this time I did absolutely nothing
I'm still ill but had to come to work. Didn't do cardio. Didn't have breakfast. I have cottage cheese with me, but have no appetite.
And I'm so stressed out about this.

 

Get better soon.



That the items haven't changed is what excited her so much; it brought back fond memories from years ago.

Next time I speak with her I'll mention Griotte and the beer.[/quote]
griotte are very addictive, i'm not sure you'd be doing her a favour

tnx.
i stayed at home today, feel like crap, just had eggs, had to force them down, then felt sick, then felt dizzy, headache is terrible, i0m gonna go to bed and try to read something.

 

i do that to, but this time i simply wasn't getting better, and then i had to go back to work...

i can't help worrying, and on top of that i completely fell off the wagon. i'm depressed, i can't remember when was the last time i felt like this, i haven't exercised in, what, two weeks now, i don't know, and i've started eating too much sugar again. there's other stuff i simply don't feel like typing about.

i feel paralyzed again, completely, i know what i need to do, but it's like i'm watching myself from a distance and cannot move my limbs

on top of that i had a stupid stupid stupid fight with my bf who is still on board, and i don't even know how to make THAT better. in fact, i don't even feel like it.

gee, this is a very very low spot where i'm at right now.

 

i'm feeling a bit better physically, stayed up late last night to make things with bf better, some improvement there. i should be able to start my exercise program again. this afternoon. must must must

Yes, 'just start' would be the answer. But how to get on board of a speeding train? I feel like i'm just standing there, watching it pass.
OK, today i'll start again. back and biceps. simple enough, and then 30 min LISS.
Sounds like a plan.

 

OK, so, i put on my workout clothes and trainers and started warming up. after about 3 min i felt like giving up. no matter how insane it was to take off the clothes i just put on.
so, i hung my pull up bar, tried a few pull ups. did 30 min back and triceps, fine weight, fine reps.
again, felt like giving up.
then put some LOUD music on, and did 58 MIN LISS!

Unfortunately, i still don't feel better, but at least i don't feel like a loser for skipping my workouts
actually, the mood i'm in, i can't believe i did it.

i wanna try my morning workouts again. wish me luck