On the 29th July I started something which I believe is going to change my life. Some time ago I accidently stumbled across the first of 4 episodes of a programme called Sex, Lies & Hypnosis on TV. The programme although done in a flashy way dealt with couples with relationship difficulties through the use of Hypnosis by a trained hypnotherapist. Out of the 4 couples: one split up because the man only did one session (out of a 12 week programme). The second couple were by the end taking a break from each other, but taking things one step at a time (in my opinion because the woman was fighting the process and self-destructive). Luckily the remaining 2 couples worked through some very real issues in their pasts and were by the end much healthier and their problems and issues were eased considerably. I've always been skeptical about hypnosis in terms of self-help, but I was impressed with the effects on the television programme so went and had a look at a few books on Hypnosis to read more about it. While looking though various books I found (to my surprise) a book by the same hypnotherapist whom I saw and liked in the TV programme. The book comes with a 6 track CD and is meant to be read in short stages and moves from identifiying your goals, to finding achievable success habits which will make the goal happen, to actualy doing them. The book also features different ways of working: with practical activities, visual work via reading and auditory methods via listening to the audio tracks (as hypnosis) when prompted. So tactile, visual and audio stimulus are utilised as the book explains.. I have now identified my first (and easiest) goal, and completed one programme towards a relatively modest goal of being more involved with Yoga. (You attempt the easiest of your goals first to build confidence and to get used to the programme). Working an hour or so a day after work I did this with hypnosis each day in just over a week. After the first day of reading, writing and listening I noticed a subtle but real change.. I suddenly felt much more positive and confident and the strange thing is that asthe first audio track said I heard the suggestions, mentally accepted them if I trusted them (I was aware of this process), but when I 'woke up' I couldn't remember a single suggestion (as the audio track suggested). Now my memory is bad, but not that bad. For the next few days I was walking around looking people confidently in the eye and starting to feel more positive about the future then I have for a long time. After a few more days (and further into the programme) I felt my confidence drop somewhat (although still higher and having a different feel than prior to the programme), and for a few days I was aware of a deep and a very real, very severe anger I was feeling towards everyone and everything. I think this is anger I was now feeling safe to express that I was not allowing to come to the surface for many years. Now I felt stronger and more confident I felt that I could express things I had blocked previously. This week I have felt better again, more focussed on tasks which get me towards my goal. In fact I have never felt more focussed and determined to do tasks which will help me arrive at my goal. It's really a strange (but not disturbing change), and things I have read in the book and the audio tracks are happening. It's a subtle thing in some ways, but in others a definate and observable change. As the hypnosis track suggested that I would start to imagine my future self doing my goal (More focussed Yoga), so I dreamt about doing Yoga in a positive way last night. Yet in the previous 10 months I've done Yoga I cannot remember one dream about it. My thinking has been much more positive and my fears lessened as well. I am aware of the temporary buzz you get from starting something like this and then having that disappear and falling back into old ways. But with the help (and specific suggestions) in the book and tracks, I am now feeling much more aware of how my mind can try to defeat me, and I feel that after over a week with these changes still happening, this is a very real change. I am also feeling much stronger and more secure since I've started this programme. So, my plan is to carry on using 3 of the tracks (which are specifically made to be used any time as long as only one is done per day), one every day for the next 3 weeks until my habits become unconsious and automatic, and work to get me towards my goal. Then I will start my next (and slightly harder goal) by working through the programme again, etc.. Each step I will advance and change in more dramatic ways as I become stronger, more confident and more able to change. So, every day I will combine the hypnosis, with going to the Gym/Yoga (monday-friday) which are part of my success habits to achieve my increased Yoga goal. Posting in this blog after every gym/yoga trip is also one of my success habits, so this will be updated regularly. This post might sound strange, scary and surprising, and I am sure some people are and will be skeptical. But if you are, don't bother posting any negative comments, they will not help me in anyway and I will ignore them. After over a week of this programme, and after still seeing ongoing positive and real changes in my thinking, feelings and behaviour I now believe this programme can in a very real way change my life. I am already a different person and maybe in the words used in this post you can feel the difference as well! In combination with Yoga which I feel is enormously helpful to me (hence the first goal being to do it more and regularly), I feel I am on a holistic path of healing. I would be happy to answer any questions about this process, if people are interested. Thank you all for your support and care!