I don't want to go into many details so I'll keep it as short as I can. I only have 1 friend who keeps in touch with me every week but sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone. I never had a girlfriend. I've always had very few friends. I am sick of college and don't put any effort at all even if I try. I am bored at life and don't even want to do small things. I'm afraid I wont have a good future at all. I can't see anything good happening to me. Especially when I'm doing bad in school. I feel lonely too and I'm still very young just out of high school last year. I think its my depression. Even when I didn't feel depressed I am sure I really was deep down. Like last year I didn't feel depressed at all. I was really busy with friends and other things. I was still struggling in college however. But I still didn't do much to meet new friends or anything. I simply can't do it. Eventually we all pretty much split and did our own thing. They were bad influence however. But will seeing a psychiatrist and perhaps taking medication help me? It sounds too good to be true. Will it help me with everything I mentioned? I want to be happy like everyone else. But I'm afraid this is who I really am personally and getting help may or may not help to get what I want. You might suggest I go outside more often and such. I go to the gym and college but other than that I don't have any where else to go. I cannot easily socialize with people. Even with the few friends (people I know) I can have some difficulty talking to them. I feel like everything about me has held me back from enjoying life and now I feel lost. I have no friends, I find life is boring, I don't see any success in my life or in the near future, I don't feel capable of doing anything, and I fear for my future of having a lousy job at the super market or something. I feel like a kid with no experience. I don't know if that's just who I'm supposed to be or not. I don't know what I am. My only hope is that seeking help will allow me to enjoy life again and open my mind so I won't be anti-social. That way I can have friends, hang out with them, get a girlfriend, laugh at jokes without faking it since nothing makes me laugh, doing well in college to get a decent career, getting in shape, and all that good stuff that I've missed out on all my life. Part of me says help and anti-depressants won't help me become more social though. I'm just tired of what I am now. I am not happy. I'm a sad broken guy even when I get my mind distracted.