... and I'm sure I'm not the only one here to know that!

I went on Swolegenix back in late July, and dropped 20 pounds between then and late September. I've more or less maintained since then. I'm pretty happy with my size as of now, and am interested in just getting stronger/putting on a bit more muscle for now...

... yet since around halfway through last month, I've been unable to eat clean for a solid week! As opposed to one cheat day a week, I've been saying "the hell with it" and chowing down on whatever a couple times a week. To make things worse, I went from religious morning cardio sessions, to 4 or less a week, or even skipped last week ENTIRELY!

What the hell do you do to get motivation back? I sure as hell don't want to gain back the fat I just lost, because I look better than I have in years. I'm just having a real hard time showing the dedication I was when I just re-started in July. :(

I'm considering digging deep and finding the cash to either get my Genix program adjusted, or purchase SwoledUp, because part of me thinks the reason I bust my ass so hard at first was that I knew I had money invested in the program, and wouldn't allow myself to waste it.

It's just frustrating, I guess. It's very much a mental game. I usually manage to make it all the way through a given day, and come the evening, there's a 50/50 chance that stress (from assorted aspects of daily life and the like) will win over and I'll grab the cookies, or have a few beers. The evening, finally home from a looong day of work/the gym, is the hardest freakin' time to stay clean for me.

You know, I realize after typing this all out that I wasn't really asking for advice as much as I needed to vent, because until tomorrow morning, I can't "start anew" and try work this guilt off!

Thanks for reading, anybody bored enough to have done so.

What's your bf (if you know)? If it's low, maybe you should bulk.

No clue, but it ain't low. I can't really get my bodyfat accurately checked anyway, due to loose skin issues. It shall forever remain a mystery! My Tanita scale says I only lost 4% (from 24 to 20), which can't be close to right... I look much different than that, heh. And I got stronger, so I can't have dumped muscle.

I know what you mean, being so far away from the pure dedication you once had... In fact, this was my downfall twice before, going back into the 'junk-food' mode, unable to crawl out. I think you should look at the bright side of this, that it's perhaps a big boost in the metabolism, and then knowing that if you keep at it you'll be back to where you were pre-junk food mode very soon. Look forward and don't let these past few days be your downfall!

Here's what I did post Swolegenix: nothing. I lost 3% body fat in a month then proceeded to let life get in the way and gained back 2% of it.

I did this the other night after I was invited to my new challenge (see sig). Sit down with a calendar and a blank sheet of paper. Write down your current position. Write down your goal. Write down target dates. Write down intermediate checkpoints at which you'll evaluate your progress. Then, use your current knowledge to devise some meal plans for your goals. Stick to them. This is the fun part... you get to see how well what you're learning or have learned will work for you.

Next, find a motivating factor - whether it be joining a challenge as I did, or the cash outlay to have SC adjust your program. Make some sort of commitment in which you have a vested interest or find a way to make yourself accountable beyond a simple self-promise to yourself.

I'll be honest... personally, self-promises are hard to keep without some mitigating factor to boost your drive and determination. It is this motivating ideal that I've been missing. I found it in the challenge section of this website.

You need to do the same for yourself and there's no time like the present - JUST DO IT. Wait, and you'll make the same mistake I did of taking three steps forward and two steps back. That really sucks worse... because negating hard work is tough to recover from.

... It's just frustrating, I guess. It's very much a mental game. I usually manage to make it all the way through a given day, and come the evening, there's a 50/50 chance that stress (from assorted aspects of daily life and the like) will win over and I'll grab the cookies, or have a few beers. The evening, finally home from a looong day of work/the gym, is the hardest freakin' time to stay clean for me.
Tell me about it! The evenings are killing me. I've tried everything I can think of but I'm ashamed to say that there's about a 50/50 chance that I'll blow a perfect day with a late night snack. When I do give in, I at least try to make it a clean cheat. I'll have to say that I've managed to turn SGX, a shredding program, into a bulking program. Actually, it's not all bad. My bf% is staying about the same while my weight goes up. That says a lot for the SGX principles, in my opinion.

The biggest difference between the two of us is that I'm almost 100% perfect on the cardio and weight training. Try to force yourself back to the exercise and you can still see improvements.

A week or so ago in 2 days, I hate a full cake (the ones you split in 10 pieces usually) and about 800 grams of icecream. this coupled with bad food (kilo of shell fish) etc. I just feeled the need to go crazy. Anyways, the days after, I just went crazy with the exercise. I penalized myself for those 2 days everyday this week at 6 am running and jumping rope and lifting weights, AND NOT going to uni until I dwas completly beat. Heck, last night during ab work I had my kickboxing coach hitting me on the abs while doing them.

Honestly, after this week, I seriously don't feel I want cake as I know if I do, this hell week will just be repeated :)

Try to penalize yourself when you do that. I don't mean not eating for a week, but double your exercise for a week. You can be sure you will think twice before binging like a mad man again :)

Bruno