I'm starting a new phase in my weightloss journey and I really need to figure out what I'm going to do. I'm really lost right now. I've surpassed my weight loss goal and saw 129 last week on the scale. This week is my second attempt at maintaining or even gaining back the pound I lost last week. I've eaten a lot of junk this week and I don't like it. I've eaten pretty clean with one cheat day a week for almost 5 months and trying to eat 2000-2500 cals a day with some ice cream and junk food is very hard on me...I'm not sure I can do it right now. So, tomorrow I am going back to eating 1300-1600 cals a day of good clean food with one cheat day a week. If I lose weight, who cares. Mentally I can't deal with eating 2500 cals right now.

Emma,

Sounds like your boyfriend is a little insecure with your progress. On the one hand, it's great to have a beautiful girlfriend, but, on the other hand, it's uncomfortable to know that every other guy in the world would kill to date her.

I think my husband is going through something similar. I've given more power to myself by ensuring that I look my personal best, and he's starting to think that maybe I don't need him as much anymore.

He said he's not comfortable with me posting photos, so I'm not sure I will anymore. On the other hand, it feels great to hear congrats from all the members here, and I miss the extra compliments on my progress.

Anyway, I think it's a mistake to force yourself to eat more than 1600 calories, if that's not what your body wants to do. Bingeing on ice cream, or even chocolate milk, will just lead to new bad habits, and you'll end up back where you were. Your body is pretty smart and it will balance itself out where it wants to be. You can tell when you're eating right by whether or not you're hungry (you should be, slightly, before each meal, and shouldn't be after each meal) and by gauging your your energy level and mood.

Relax Woe, It's a guy thing.

We follow the rationale that 10 is twice 5 so ~10 must be better. Life is very binary for us. Women on the other have a 4 dimensional mind and can formulate social equations that are unsolvable, for instance "how do I look?" As men, we can’t answer that without stirring the 4th (emotional) dimension. If your confused, it worked. We are now on the same plane. In order for men and women to communicate in written text, a filter must be used.

In other words, Cisco was just saying that he can't believe how good you look. And you heard (insert woman's thoughts here - I can't even begin to imagine). The important thing is that your B/F is getting fit with you. In one of your previous threads, I recall you were very glad he decided to make the change. Enjoy this together and you both will look so gosh darn hot that neither of you will notice the rest of us fat kids. lol

Congrats Cisco for making the decision to live clean.

Guava - We all need encouragement. That's why most of us are here, your February pics are amazing. Your in the best shape of your life - Celebrate it!

if your trying to add calories.. if you want to maintain a lean look, it's best to start bumping post workout intake..

your post workout shake can use some more carbs and protein. your post workout meal can use some more carbs and protein as well, solid form of course.. adding 1 cup of rice is like 45 carbs right there.. 200+ calories

you need to start off slowly, slowly increasing your calories over a few weeks

A Snickers energy bar and a p'zone... you're killing me here! ENVY!

Hope the puking has stopped and you are feeling better.

As way too hard to eat right when feeling sick :(

[QUOTE=woeisemma]Today was the first work out in a week. It was pretty boring. I am trying something different with my weight lifting, I'm taking about 15 seconds for each rep and I do 30 reps of each muscle at low weights - 10,20, and 30. [QUOTE]

Negative resistance is a GREAT way to build up strength, IMHO. It's the method of strength training I'll be using in August when I start my bulking phase. (hope I don't lose my abs) I just do MUCH lower reps. :D


Good luck, Emma! Cool name BTW - same as my daughter :tu:

Ken

I know what you mean about the scale... If I don't like the number on it - it can ruin my day (well the first few hours at least). Its just very hard to accept that things flucuate slightly....
In any event, you'd have to consume 7125 calories - AND convert them all to fat/muscle for the scale to jump up "for real". You've made amazing progress so far, this is just water retention.

I find it best to weigh myself once a week under the same conditions at my lightest I'm in a day. I get consistent readings when maintaining.

You look great Emma!

My goal is to lose at least 1 inch off my thighs in 3 months. Is that realisitic? I hope so.

No.

My goal in January was to lose about an inch off each thigh. So far, all I've managed to do is lose 5 pounds, a few inches off the chest, a couple of inches off the hips, and a little more than an inch off the waist. My thighs, I'm still waiting. NO shrinkage there yet at all. Problem is, I don't really want a smaller waist, and I don't need a smaller chest. I also don't need to be under 120 pounds at more than 5 feet 4 inches tall.

You can't choose where the fat comes off. Wish you could.

You are sooooo right there Guava!! I'm loosing weight everywhere except on my hips as well. What I am doing now and see how I react to that is a massage to activate my circulation on legs and hips. Has anyone ever used any kind of body lotion to prevent and activate circulation?

You don't necessarily need smaller thighs. I've somewhat given up on that quest and and trying to tighten the general area now.

I must say in the last couple of days, I've noticed a huge improvement. :D I've been doing
exercises like these about twice a week for about a monthBuild a Better Butt (http://www.ediets.com/news/article.cfm?cmi=328325&cid=3&code=24567) (squats, lunges, and kick ups). Actually, I don't like squats, so I do a dumbbell bench step-up instead.

These exercises are especially nice because you don't need a gym. It's worth a try.

Ken, how old is your daughter? Emma has been the #1 and #2 name for girls for about 5 years now.

My arms are sore from my new weight routine. They haven't felt sore since the first few weeks of training about 3 months ago. I will do my lower body routine on Monday and hopefully my legs will be sore too.
I think I had 6 cans of diet A&W today..I have a headache from it. New pix might be up on my website come Tuesday. I really like how my stomach looked May 5th so that is why I'm reluctant to update it :)

I found out that 'Emma' was a popular name just after she was born. She'll be 4 in October. She's the only one I've heard of in a long, long time.

And lay off the diet pop!

Hehe...

Ken

I suppose you must have been cutting your calories too low. It just took a while for the fat loss to show up. You could have lost all that weight with more calories. You could have been eating at Denny's and Ihop all along. :eat: However, I don't think you're in much danger of your weight creeping down to 120 if you keep eating chicken quesadillas and Haagen Das. :eek:

Oh, and there's nothing wrong with your thighs. They look great.

Today is my free day and I plan to eat like crazy. I have no clue what to have for breakfast though. Donuts don't sound good, candy and ice cream make me sick in the morning..wish I had someone to go with me to Denny's or Ihop.

Yeah, if you ever want to start your free day right, I say go for IHOP. Big Country Omelette, bacon, hash browns... either that or biscuits from Hardees/Carl's Jr.

Wow, my size 6 jeans are BAGGY! :D

Swapped avatars? I have to say I prefer the other one more :)

-Allen

I needed something different. I like my smile in this one :D Swapped avatars? I have to say I prefer the other one more :)

-Allen

i like them all :spaz:

Shopping isn't so bad when you're a size 4! :spaz: WOOHOO! What I can't stand is that the pants are tight around my thighs, but there is about an inch of room around my waist.

Shopping isn't so bad when you're a size 4! :spaz: WOOHOO! What I can't stand is that the pants are tight around my thighs, but there is about an inch of room around my waist.

Because the current fashions seem to have the part that should go around your waist actually ending up on your thighs :p

I hate fashion.

-Allen

Because the current fashions seem to have the part that should go around your waist actually ending up on your thighs :p

I hate fashion.

-Allen

haha, aint that the truth :drool:

Lookin good there emma :drool:

"Babe"

That is all.

-Allen

I think months of drinking 3-5 cans of diet A&W a day has started to take its toll on my stomach. I used to have acid reflux a few years ago..but since I've changed my eating habits it's really subsided..except I feel the familiar twing in my stomach some days now. Diet A&W is the only thing I can think of that could make my stomach feel this way..anyone have any other ideas?

I think months of drinking 3-5 cans of diet A&W a day has started to take its toll on my stomach. I used to have acid reflux a few years ago..but since I've changed my eating habits it's really subsided..except I feel the familiar twing in my stomach some days now. Diet A&W is the only thing I can think of that could make my stomach feel this way..anyone have any other ideas?

It could be stress, especially with your current situation with your x and looking for a new apt. and stuff. My stomach feels awful sometimes when I am stressed/mad or whatever.

BTW the you look really good in the new pic you posted above. It seems like you are getting in better shape everyday. :)

im so jealous of your progress emma! and your website is wonderful. really enjoyed the 50 interesting facts. are you graduating now or next year?

Thanks Destiny! When will you be posting your transformation pix?It could be stress, especially with your current situation with your x and looking for a new apt. and stuff. My stomach feels awful sometimes when I am stressed/mad or whatever.

BTW the you look really good in the new pic you posted above. It seems like you are getting in better shape everyday. :)

Thanks..I don't know when I'll be graduating due to money issues. I'm hoping a year from now but I don't know if that can happen.im so jealous of your progress emma! and your website is wonderful. really enjoyed the 50 interesting facts. are you graduating now or next year?

Thanks Destiny! When will you be posting your transformation pix?

Hopefully, I will be posting pics in abut eight weeks. I have lost 25 lbs since January and currently weigh 132.5, but I am only 5'4 so I still want to lose a little more before I post. I feel too self concious to post right now, even though I have made progress. I am in that "mid transformation" where I still look puffier than I want to and I think about 10-15 more pounds should make the difference. I checkout your website all the time because it keeps me so motivated. I am so shy to post pics and journals for everyone to see, but I am so glad that people like you are kind enough to inspire others by posting your pics/journals! It seems like the last 10 lbs you lost made an amazing difference! I hope the same thing happens to me! :tu:

Thanks Destiny! I'm glad someone reads my journal. Yeah, going from 140 to 130 really made a difference..I look much less puffy. Are you sure you are 26% body fat? QUOTE=Destiny]Hopefully, I will be posting pics in abut eight weeks. I have lost 25 lbs since January and currently weigh 132.5, but I am only 5'4 so I still want to lose a little more before I post. I feel too self concious to post right now, even though I have made progress. I am in that "mid transformation" where I still look puffier than I want to and I think about 10-15 more pounds should make the difference. I checkout your website all the time because it keeps me so motivated. I am so shy to post pics and journals for everyone to see, but I am so glad that people like you are kind enough to inspire others by posting your pics/journals! It seems like the last 10 lbs you lost made an amazing difference! I hope the same thing happens to me! :tu:[/QUOTE]

Here are pics I took last night of me in the size 7/8 jeans I am wearing in my before pix on my website. It's weird how I can fit into a size 4 but these 7/8 jeans still fit me pretty well. They have some extra room when I sit down which is good cuz I can tuck my rolls in :tu:

LMAO, what rolls!? :spaz:

:D Your comments are always so nice jk0 :tu:

:D Your comments are always so nice jk0 :tu:

:spaz:

Well, I am sorry to say things didn't work out as planned with me going to meet KarateTricker, but something very good came out of all of this. Since I already have my ticket to New York, my x and I have decided to fly to New York together next week and have this trip mark the beginning our new journey together. We are planning a very romantic vacation and are in high hopes that we can work things out. We have agreed to begin couples counseling when we return from New York. We are looking at 2-3 bedroom apartments w/ 2 baths on Saturday and my stress is almost 100% gone now. Everything happens for a reason and I'm very pleased with how everything has worked out.

Other exciting news is I've decided to start modeling again! My confidence is soaring and since I need the extra cash..why not? I have one photo shoot lined up for the beginning of July and I will for sure post some pix!

I am really glad to hear things are working out for you! I hope things go well for you and your x!!! :nod:

I was in an excellent mood today so I decided to start my free day early by having a free night plus a free day tomorrow. Hell, my stress is gone so I needed to celebrate. If I gain a pound or two, who cares. I'll lose it in the next few weeks, and it's not like I have anyone to impress. :tu:
I'm getting tired with my eating routine. I'm not sure what I want to do with my body. I'd really love to eat more strict and build some muscle, but I'm not sure. I think I'm going to try eating very strict for a few days and see how it turns out. When I say very strict..I mean no processed foods like trail mix, baked lays, skinny cow ice cream, granola bars, soups, bread..all the things I have grown to love.

Today was my free day, but I did 30 min cardio on the elliptical, 35 min jogging, and 25 min upper body. I felt GREAT jogging! I have missed it so much. I will try to jog for at least 30 min 2-3 times a week on top of my regular cardio. I wonder how many miles I jogged today. I jogged in a cemetary so I have no clue. :confused: Anybody else like Jay Z's new song "99 Problems"? I think it's great :)

Anybody else like Jay Z's new song "99 Problems"? I think it's great :)
/sheepishly raises hand

I like that song. :o :)

Anybody else like Jay Z's new song "99 Problems"? I think it's great :)

The whole "Black Album" is nuts....def worth picking up!

Finally got the guts to post before/after pix of my thighs/butt/saddlebags on my webpage. After a 25 lb loss in the pix, I think lipo will be my only option to get rid of the dreaded saddlebags. I would post the pix here..but I don't think posting my butt on John's forum is appropriate.

Finally got the guts to post before/after pix of my thighs/butt/saddlebags on my webpage. After a 25 lb loss in the pix, I think lipo will be my only option to get rid of the dreaded saddlebags. I would post the pix here..but I don't think posting my butt on John's forum is appropriate.

Didnt get a chance to look at your site since your allocated data transfer for the day was exceeded. But from your avatar you look pretty good (understatement) so it cant be as bad as you say.

Didnt get a chance to look at your site since your allocated data transfer for the day was exceeded. But from your avatar you look pretty good (understatement) so it cant be as bad as you say.
that happens a lot with photos and such being hosted on geocities.

woeisemma, if you need a place to toss your photos and hotlink to them, you can always upload them to http://gallery.gettingripped.com! ;-)

My entire body is a little sore from jogging yesterday. If the weather permits, I will go jogging again today after my 45 min cardio session.
Back to healthy eating today after 1.5 days of eating pure junk on purpose.

I'm not trying to hit on you or anything, but you have a very cute butt. :o

In fact, your butt is so cute, I'm sure no one but you sees the problem you see in your thighs. Millions of women around the world would kill to have a rear view like that.

I have gained about 15-20 lbs in strength..is that a lot or no?

Whoops! Got sidetracked by those butt pics. I was going to comment on this.

How do you mean gained 15 to 20 pounds of stength?

Do you mean you used to 5 pound dumbbells and now you curl 22 pound dumbbells? Or you used to curl an empty barbell and now you curl one with 15 pounds on it? Or are you not even talking about bicep curls?

In 4 months, I went from 4.4 pound dumbbells to 16.5 pound dumbbells, but I don't know if you're looking to compare yourself with others, or what kind of answer you wanted.

Your answer helped. I have increased about 20 lbs on all my exercises in 4 months I suppose...it could be more.Whoops! Got sidetracked by those butt pics. I was going to comment on this.

How do you mean gained 15 to 20 pounds of stength?

Do you mean you used to 5 pound dumbbells and now you curl 22 pound dumbbells? Or you used to curl an empty barbell and now you curl one with 15 pounds on it? Or are you not even talking about bicep curls?

In 4 months, I went from 4.4 pound dumbbells to 16.5 pound dumbbells, but I don't know if you're looking to compare yourself with others, or what kind of answer you wanted.

lol, wow. I've hated my butt for so long. Thanks!I'm not trying to hit on you or anything, but you have a very cute butt. :o

In fact, your butt is so cute, I'm sure no one but you sees the problem you see in your thighs. Millions of women around the world would kill to have a rear view like that.

im kind of confused. what's a saddlebag? cause your butt looks awesome :D

also, i think your bicep looks great too. what is your goal as far as your arms? i think 15-20lb increases are phenomenal. I wish i could increase where i am right now :mad:

em, you are an inspiration to all of us :)

Finally got the guts to post before/after pix of my thighs/butt/saddlebags on my webpage.

Wow. Just... holy... wow! :drool:

Wow. Just... holy... wow! :drool:

yeah i can see how her allotted daily bandwith maxed out :D

great job Em

Jason

yeah i can see how her allotted daily bandwith maxed out :D

great job Em

Jason

I did my part :tu: on the butt.

I did my part :tu: on the butt.

heh, who hasnt? :lol:

Modeling. It's amazing that I finally have the confidence to do bikini modeling, but a part of me is worried I won't look good enough. The only way I will find out is after my first shoot. A photograher from my area told me about a few local bikini contests..but I'm not so sure I have the confidence to do those. I have stretch marks on my thighs and I'd be too worried they would be visible. I also think I'd be too embarassed to be on a stage with tons of drunk guys hollering at me. I feel uncomfortable when I walk past guys at the mall and they look at me. For the bikini contest, there are two winners each week who win $200 each. They are featured in a calendar. I saw the winners so far on the website, and they all have large fake boobs. Though mine are pretty big, I don't think they could compare with the high profile 34DDDs. My interest in modeling, bikini contests, and any other way I can make over $100 in a day came about because I found out I can't get loans for my last year of college. I need about $6000 and I have nothing. Piled on top of the fact my hours at work got cut in half and I live with my x, my stress level is back up there. :mad:

Modeling. It's amazing that I finally have the confidence to do bikini modeling, but a part of me is worried I won't look good enough. The only way I will find out is after my first shoot. A photograher from my area told me about a few local bikini contests..but I'm not so sure I have the confidence to do those. I have stretch marks on my thighs and I'd be too worried they would be visible. I also think I'd be too embarassed to be on a stage with tons of drunk guys hollering at me. I feel uncomfortable when I walk past guys at the mall and they look at me. For the bikini contest, there are two winners each week who win $200 each. They are featured in a calendar. I saw the winners so far on the website, and they all have large fake boobs. Though mine are pretty big, I don't think they could compare with the high profile 34DDDs. My interest in modeling, bikini contests, and any other way I can make over $100 in a day came about because I found out I can't get loans for my last year of college. I need about $6000 and I have nothing. Piled on top of the fact my hours at work got cut in half and I live with my x, my stress level is back up there. :mad:

Don't fret about your stretch marks. Every girl has them and airbrushing can do amazing things! Also, remember that not everyone is crazy about fake boobs. Maybe a girl with a body as amazing as yours and real boobs that are a decent size, would really impress the judges. I know I would choose a girl with real ones over fake ones any day if I were judging a swimsuit competition. If your boobs and stretch marks are really the only things holding you back, tell you insecurities to shut up and just go for it. You look a hell of a lot better than most girls and I think you would have a very good chance at winning!

As an alternative way to pay for your last year of college, you may want to consider looking for full time employment at a place that offers tuition reimbursement. A lot of places will start paying for your college courses after you have been employed with them for as little as three months. Even if you initially have to take a position you are not crazy about, hopefully you can get a position in their HR dept after you finish school. That is how I pay for school and it works out pretty good. I can't take quite as many classes as I wish I could each year, but I can't complain since I haven't paid a dime! :)

In any case good luck! I am sure everything will work out in time!

:gl:

Thanks Destiny! I have applied at a few places that offer college tuition reimbursements and I hope they work out. I'm off to apply for more jobs right now :)Don't fret about your stretch marks. Every girl has them and airbrushing can do amazing things! Also, remember that not everyone is crazy about fake boobs. Maybe a girl with a body as amazing as yours and real boobs that are a decent size, would really impress the judges. I know I would choose a girl with real ones over fake ones any day if I were judging a swimsuit competition. If your boobs and stretch marks are really the only things holding you back, tell you insecurities to shut up and just go for it. You look a hell of a lot better than most girls and I think you would have a very good chance at winning!

As an alternative way to pay for your last year of college, you may want to consider looking for full time employment at a place that offers tuition reimbursement. A lot of places will start paying for your college courses after you have been employed with them for as little as three months. Even if you initially have to take a position you are not crazy about, hopefully you can get a position in their HR dept after you finish school. That is how I pay for school and it works out pretty good. I can't take quite as many classes as I wish I could each year, but I can't complain since I haven't paid a dime! :)

In any case good luck! I am sure everything will work out in time!

:gl:

Thinking about modeling and bikini contests really makes me want to work harder! Today my work out consisted of:
36 min upper body
45 min cardio
I wanted to jog today but it's been raining nonstop.
Today is my free day.
I weighed in at 131, but I am one day early for my free day, plus Saturday I had a whole lotta pizza and pizza rolls at 11pm.

Your first step toward a modeling career should be to let Troy host your images on his site. Your bandwidth is being exceeded before lunchtime and some of us haven't seen the pic's to give a proper evaluation.

As a gentleman, when I respond I will avoid adding any of the following expressions: :p :eek: :drool: :claplow:

Who is Troy?Your first step toward a modeling career should be to let Troy host your images on his site. Your bandwidth is being exceeded before lunchtime and some of us haven't seen the pic's to give a proper evaluation.

As a gentleman, when I respond I will avoid adding any of the following expressions: :p :eek: :drool: :claplow:

Who is Troy?

corbint (gettingripped.com)

Wow! That outfit looks fantastic. Good luck with the contest and let us know how it goes!


Ok, if my skin clears up I'll be driving 1 hour to view a bikini contest by myself on Friday. If I decide to enter the contest at a later date, I have to be judged first in club wear. I think I've found an outfit that would work great for that part of the contest.

gettingripped.com

he has free image hosting. I could host them for free as well if you would like. let me know

Who is Troy?

Ok, I'm not doing the bikini contest on Friday. I have an awesome photo shoot lined up after work on Friday..woohoo!

tell us more about how you met the photographer, the pay offered, where the pics will be published, etc! this sounds like an interesting turn of events!

Met the photographer through a modeling site..it's a TFP so no pay since I'm building my portfolio, and they aren't being published. I will post them once they are edited and sent to me. :cool: tell us more about how you met the photographer, the pay offered, where the pics will be published, etc! this sounds like an interesting turn of events!

cool... ive heard a horror story or two about TFP shoots, so just make sure you are careful, and if possible, take someone with you!

Thanks but I've been on quite a few TFPs and they werent horror stories at all..though one photographer was a real bleep. :) I'm sooo excited :) I actually got three offers for a shoot Friday night. One was paid which was for screen savers for cell phones, but the TFP is with a very awesome photographer who I've been dying to work with. :tucool: cool... ive heard a horror story or two about TFP shoots, so just make sure you are careful, and if possible, take someone with you!

screensavers for cell phones? interesting! cant wait to see the pics, enjoy the shoot!

I wouldn't obsess too much about the stretch marks Emma, you look great and I don't think anyone would notice - certainly not us guys anyway.

If it is still an issue for you (and I know how you feel because I have them) there is a good thread in the women's health forum, if you haven't seen it yet, with suggestions on treating them.

Ok, I'm not doing the bikini contest on Friday. I have an awesome photo shoot lined up after work on Friday..woohoo!

Are you still going to New York?

No, my x decided last minute that he didnt want to rush things. :( Are you still going to New York?

you'd better post pics after you get it and try it on!! good luck with the photoshoot! so exciting!


New bathing suit I ordered. Lucky me my fav model is wearing it :)

I'll be taking the pix of me in the black bathing suit off my site cuz my x said he never liked me posing in it since he bought it for me (tells me this months after having my pix up there) and I'll be posting new pix in the white bathing suit. I might post some in this journal too. you'd better post pics after you get it and try it on!! good luck with the photoshoot! so exciting!

I just ordered Walden Farms Calorie Free Ranch and Balsamic Vinergrette or however you spell it salad dressing. I want to switch my typical sandwich and snacks lunch to a huge chicken salad and hopefully..crap I should have ordered Caesar instead of Ranch. DARRRRNNN ITT.

well now at least you can see if calorie free actually tastes good, if it has any taste at all.

if it does, i'll order the caesar and letcha know how it is.

let me know how you like the ones you got though. i've definitely been interested to try this stuff out.

when are you supposed to get the new bathing suit?

It was shipped today :D well now at least you can see if calorie free actually tastes good, if it has any taste at all.

if it does, i'll order the caesar and letcha know how it is.

let me know how you like the ones you got though. i've definitely been interested to try this stuff out.

when are you supposed to get the new bathing suit?

R.I.P my dear Pizza Hut Pzone with extra Cheese.
You were my favorite cheat meal and I will miss you.
*Pizza Hut no longer makes Pzones :d_frown:

As I found out last weekend when I tried to order one for cheat day. Rat bastards. Bring back the P-Zone! Oh, and the tummy looks fine. If only I had that kind of definition... it's coming.

Like last week, I had pizza on a non-cheat day. I had about 1500 cals of pizza last night. Only three slices, but it was Rocky Rococos. I also had a few hundred cals in breadsticks. I did 1 hour of intense cardio before the pizza, and my total cals for the day were around 2800, with my ratios 30f,50c,20p, so not so bad. I wonder if I should change my free day to two-three cheat meals a week. Does anybody else do that instead of one huge cheat day?

1 hour of truly intense cardio or just medium intensity? if it was HIIT-style, 1 hour would probably kill ya!

cheat meals are both for mental stability and thyroid maintenance. spreading them out over a few days will change the mental picture of cheat meals to make them more acceptable throughout the week, and would open the door to potential 3-4-5 cheat meals a week. if you just do a cheat day, its something to look forward to for 6 days.... keep a running log of the weird stuff you crave over the course of a week, and indulge on that one day. the thyroid sees the odd macronutrients come in, and adjusts accordingly.

If you consider 85-95% MHR for 1 hour medium, then it was medium. I consider 60-75% medium. I dont do hiit because of my asthma. Yeah, I should make a log of what I crave during the week and eat everything on my free day. I think that will help. 1 hour of truly intense cardio or just medium intensity? if it was HIIT-style, 1 hour would probably kill ya!

cheat meals are both for mental stability and thyroid maintenance. spreading them out over a few days will change the mental picture of cheat meals to make them more acceptable throughout the week, and would open the door to potential 3-4-5 cheat meals a week. if you just do a cheat day, its something to look forward to for 6 days.... keep a running log of the weird stuff you crave over the course of a week, and indulge on that one day. the thyroid sees the odd macronutrients come in, and adjusts accordingly.

About 19 days till my photo shoot. OOOHH I'm excited. I had my last free meal tonight so I will try my hardest to go 19 days w/out cheating. My goal is to work out as much as possible, which will be easy considering my hours were drastically cut at work.

you cannot possibly go 19 days without cheating!! i think you'l go insane and have a cheat day where you would eat enough for a week! and that's not what we want. I think you should have at least 1 or 2 cheat days in there, just to keep your thyroid in balance if nothing else. We dont want you going insane right before your photo shoot! :D

And a pzone looks exactly like a calzone - is that what it is? i wish i had one before they were gone. looks incredible. is it as big in real life as it looks in that picture?

Bread seems to be my weakness. I can go out to a restaurant and order a salad, but if there's bread sticks (damn you olive garden) it seems like i eat my weight in them. I did that for lunch and dinner on friday!! *barf*

and i wonder why i cant lose this fat pooch in my tummy :(


About 19 days till my photo shoot. OOOHH I'm excited. I had my last free meal tonight so I will try my hardest to go 19 days w/out cheating. My goal is to work out as much as possible, which will be easy considering my hours were drastically cut at work.

You're right, I'm gonna have a cheat day tomorrow :D
A pzone was huge; I could hardly eat the whole thing w/out wanting to throw up. I'm gonna try a calzone tomorrow for dinner. :tu: you cannot possibly go 19 days without cheating!! i think you'l go insane and have a cheat day where you would eat enough for a week! and that's not what we want. I think you should have at least 1 or 2 cheat days in there, just to keep your thyroid in balance if nothing else. We dont want you going insane right before your photo shoot! :D

And a pzone looks exactly like a calzone - is that what it is? i wish i had one before they were gone. looks incredible. is it as big in real life as it looks in that picture?

Bread seems to be my weakness. I can go out to a restaurant and order a salad, but if there's bread sticks (damn you olive garden) it seems like i eat my weight in them. I did that for lunch and dinner on friday!! *barf*

and i wonder why i cant lose this fat pooch in my tummy :(

Go for it! I have cheat meals like 5 times a week. Im really weak.

On a totally random note, I pigged out big time at dinner tomorrow, following a delicious bbq chicken and potato salad meal with cookies and a TON of angel food cake.

I woke up today, same weight as always, but my tummy looked a little slimmer than usual. So maybe there is something to cheat meals keeping you in check. I had pretty much eaten just salad and breadsticks the day before so maybe my body needed to be kick started or something. In any case, I am definitely happy.

And you could do that photoshoot now! You look phenomenal - you should be so happy with your progress. You shouldnt be apprehensive about the shoot coming up, you should be looking forward to dominating it and landing some really good photos and a modeling job!

Good Luck!! :gl:

lol, if you want to win your competition you can't be having 5 cheat days a week!! I'm waiting for you to post your pix! And thanks for the compliments :cool: Go for it! I have cheat meals like 5 times a week. Im really weak.

On a totally random note, I pigged out big time at dinner tomorrow, following a delicious bbq chicken and potato salad meal with cookies and a TON of angel food cake.

I woke up today, same weight as always, but my tummy looked a little slimmer than usual. So maybe there is something to cheat meals keeping you in check. I had pretty much eaten just salad and breadsticks the day before so maybe my body needed to be kick started or something. In any case, I am definitely happy.

And you could do that photoshoot now! You look phenomenal - you should be so happy with your progress. You shouldnt be apprehensive about the shoot coming up, you should be looking forward to dominating it and landing some really good photos and a modeling job!

Good Luck!! :gl:

you cannot possibly go 19 days without cheating!! i think you'l go insane and have a cheat day where you would eat enough for a week!

Just wanted to jump in and say that 19 days really isn't that long. I personally have gone as long as 13 weeks without cheating and I know Duckman said he went 10 months! You just have to learn to eat for "fuel" and not for taste. Of course, you do look great already and I imagine it won't hurt you to have 1 per week, but honestly, every time I seem to read your journal, it mentions that today is your free day. You've done great so far Em, just think of your goals and it will make it easier.

Jason

Txitalian, I have one free day a week, though every other week or so it seems I give in and eat an extra free meal with my x. :) I went grocery shopping tonight for my last free day tomorrow. I'm going to allow myself one- two free dinners a week and possibly a candy bar in between instead of 1 free day. I'll do this for a few weeks and see how it works out. A factor in eliminating my free day is I can't afford it anymore. I spend about $20 once a week on my free days, and that is $80 a month I really could put towards something meaningful. My bathingsuit arrived and I think I'll take pix in it tomorrow, but it doesn't fit correctly so I am returning it. Just wanted to jump in and say that 19 days really isn't that long. I personally have gone as long as 13 weeks without cheating and I know Duckman said he went 10 months! You just have to learn to eat for "fuel" and not for taste. Of course, you do look great already and I imagine it won't hurt you to have 1 per week, but honestly, every time I seem to read your journal, it mentions that today is your free day. You've done great so far Em, just think of your goals and it will make it easier.

Jason

I just ordered Walden Farms Calorie Free Ranch and Balsamic Vinergrette or however you spell it salad dressing. I want to switch my typical sandwich and snacks lunch to a huge chicken salad and hopefully..crap I should have ordered Caesar instead of Ranch. DARRRRNNN ITT.

Don't worry, they're all good. Have you heard the latest, they have some no cal sauces now, too.

I'm going to order the alfredo sauce. I'll let you know how it is.

No cal alfredo sauce.....how do they do that ??....no, ...wait...I don't want to know. :D

brian

Yeah I saw the sauce, but then I'd have to eat tons of noodles and that wouldn't be good. The cheapest site I found was www.thebetterhealthstore.com I think the sauce was about $3 there.Don't worry, they're all good. Have you heard the latest, they have some no cal sauces now, too.

I'm going to order the alfredo sauce. I'll let you know how it is.

No cal alfredo sauce.....how do they do that ??....no, ...wait...I don't want to know. :D

brian

I read that Tyra Banks (or someone) goes on an Atkins diet two weeks before a fashion show (or some major event). But if bread and sugar are your weakness, that won't work so well.

I used to do Atkins for a few days every week to help with my weightloss and I don't think there is any way I could go two weeks eating like that. I'm just gonna eat clean and up my exercise. :tucool: I read that Tyra Banks (or someone) goes on an Atkins diet two weeks before a fashion show (or some major event). But if bread and sugar are your weakness, that won't work so well.

I just wanted to express my sadness that the P'zone is gone... long live the P'zone! They stopped making them here in central VA a long time ago... guess they're gone completely. :d_frown:
Oh, and keep up the good progress, you're doing well as always. :tu:

Thanks :D I just wanted to express my sadness that the P'zone is gone... long live the P'zone! They stopped making them here in central VA a long time ago... guess they're gone completely. :d_frown:
Oh, and keep up the good progress, you're doing well as always. :tu:

Wow! Your legs are starting to show some real definition. The top of the swim suit looks good, but it looks like you need the bottom in a smaller size. Can you exchange the bottom, or do you have to get both pieces in the same size? Buying swim suits can be so frustrating!

Thanks for posting the pics. You look fantastic. Your progress always helps to motivate me!

Thanks Destiny :) The bottom only comes in one size fits all, which I found to be very bizarre.Wow! Your legs are starting to show some real definition. The top of the swim suit looks good, but it looks like you need the bottom in a smaller size. Can you exchange the bottom, or do you have to get both pieces in the same size? Buying swim suits can be so frustrating!

Thanks for posting the pics. You look fantastic. Your progress always helps to motivate me!

Here are two pix of me in my ill-fitting swim suit. I am returning it because it fits horribly(baggy material where it shouldn't be baggy). I like how my legs are beginning to look muscular.


:spaz: :drool: :tucool:

Ya, in my experience, one size definitely does NOT fit all. But I really like that bathing suit, and you look fantastic in it! Must feel so good to have accomplished so much and to be so inspiring for the rest of us.

Here are two pix of me in my ill-fitting swim suit. I am returning it because it fits horribly(baggy material where it shouldn't be baggy). I like how my legs are beginning to look muscular.


If Carol Grow is your ultimate goal congratulations! it's incredible you are almost identical! :claphigh:

what can i say emma, you are beautiful :nod:

Gotta agree with everyone, you're looking super hot!

swimming sounds awesome. Im going to the beach on Monday which should be fun. Weather has been awesome out here recently. Havent been excited about going to the beach in like 10 years :o

I think you have a pretty good chance of getting on the TV show. why not right? That'd be pretty exciting if you did! Keep us updated! :gl:



Thanks for the comments everyone.

America's Next Top Model is coming to town July 9 and I'm going to audition. That should be interesting!! I don't plan on getting on the show, but it will be something fun for me to do.

I have eaten more clean these last two days and I'm loving it. Walden Farms Ranch calorie free dressing doesn't taste that great, but the Balsamic tastes pretty good. My workout today was 30 min lower body, 30 min bike, 45 min jogging outside in the 85 degree heat. I should go swimming! Yes, I think I'm gonna go for the first time in years!

I probably won't make it to the audition b/c my car will most likely still be in the shop.

These last few days I have really wondered why I'm eating healthy and caring so much about my appearance. I'm really wondering why I don't eat fast food whenever I please. I would turn down Arby's because I needed to lose weight, but I don't need to lose any more weight. This whole maintaining period is weird. A part of me wants to be fat again because I know how to lose the weight and I know I can do it. I guess I just miss being able to eat anything I want when I want it. I think I will try something new for the month of July. I will still work out 4-5 hours a week, but if I want Arby's for dinner, I'll have Arby's for dinner. I'm not sure if I can stop tracking my food in fitday; that will be a goal for the winter. I guess I'm frustrated that I have a toned, thin body, but I don't have the cute clothes to show it off, and I don't go out to places where I could show it off. When's the last time I went out to a nice dinner? Probably 3 months ago. I can't afford a new cute, sexy wardrobe :d_frown: and probably won't be able to afford one until 6 months - 1 year from now. GRRR

I think you should try something new for July! But not what you suggested. Sounds like you are feeling down/ bored. (Dont ever let that be a reason to go back to where you were)
So to you, gorgeous girl, remember how much better you must feel now! And that a healthy body makes a healthy mind! Dont change that for anything!
Not helping, but buy new, sexy clothes when you can afford it!

Isnt there another way to get to the audition?

Take some time to get used to the maintainence phase!

I think it sounds good. Dont get down, Emma! Look at how far you've come! I've had a really rough eating week, or weeks too, with my dad's birthday, father's day and 2 bbqs on 4th of july, I dont know how I'm still standing.

But I dont think you should be getting in shape JUST to look good for everyone. That is definitely a big part, don't get me wrong, but dont you feel better eating healthier and knowing that you've come so far? I definitely still eat when im depressed or bored and its really taking its toll on my transformation. You're my inspiration! I'll take you out for a nice dinner when I visit UW Madison for Halloween this year :)

And I dont think having Arby's once in a while will do any harm. You could definitely do worse since I know Arby's has a bunch of deli type sandwiches that are pretty good.

And I dont think having Arby's once in a while will do any harm. You could definitely do worse since I know Arby's has a bunch of deli type sandwiches that are pretty good.

You can always look all that up at www.nutritiondata.com and find the "best" item.

emm, aside from using weight as a measurement, what about bodyfat % and also simple measurements of arms, thighs, hips, waist, neck, chest, etc? remember, weight isnt anything but a number, and can vary by time of day, and day of week, etc.

the extra weight could be water weight, related to the monthly period cycle that women have, or any number of other issues.

to gain 10 true pounds, you would have needed to eat 35,000 extra calories over the course of a month. looking at your food logs, i doubt you did that!

at the very least, this should be a wakeup call to get back on the clean eating bandwagon, and give it another go!

Muscle?

Probably not in that short period of time.

Over time though, weight tends to increase as fat goes and muscle builds.

That's why how you look, not so much your weight, is the best indicator.

B

no, even the best bodybuilders on the best of androgens and steroids dont pack on 8 lbs of muscle mass in a month, let alone 3 months!

seriously emm, dont beat yourself up over it, just use it to fuel your next month of workouts and dieting and it will be all good!

that's pretty interesting. eating frequent smaller meals is my biggest problem since i love eating. glad to know your workout went well today. im still psyching myself up for the dreaded leg day :(


Completed 1 hour of cardio and upper body workout. I feel good :) Weighed in at 135.0. I'd like to be 18% bf instead of 20.

I read this on Skwigg's site and I found it to be very interesting. I want to share it will you guys. It's her summary about an article in Her's magazine.

There was a study showing that the old energy equation - eat less and exercise more - is hooey and that timing is everything. They found that female gymnasts and runners who didn't eat or snack for 3 hours or longer had the highest body fat percentages - even if they weren't consuming more calories than they were burning. The longer the gap between meals, the higher the body fat, especially if they exercised during those non-eating periods. The study also showed that those who ate less than their energy needs - the old formula for weight loss - weren't losing weight. The runners in the study ate an average of 200-400 calories a day less than they were burning. At times during the day they would have up to a 1,100 calorie deficit going based on their intense training and infrequent meals. But they weren't losing weight like they should have. The meal-skippers and over-exercisers were the fattest athletes in the study.

They suspect it's because when your body is deprived of food for even a few hours, it starts clinging to any calorie it gets. Your whole metabolism shifts so that when you do finally eat you have a larger than normal insulin response, store more fat, and get hungry sooner. You also have impaired appetite regulation and a greater tendency to binge. The conclusion was that for maximum leanness, you should never be at a calorie deficit or surplus of more than 300 calories. So, if I were to burn 700 calories during one of my whacked out 90-minute personal training and sword fighting sessions, I would need to eat 400 calories beforehand to avoid slipping into a deficit of more than 300 calories. I was already eating before, between and immediately after brutal workouts. I do it because I'm hungry but I guess it helps keep my percentage of body fat down. I'm starting to really question Bill Phillips' empty stomach theory.

Interesting stuff. Was this from an email or like an online dating thing? Guess I'll take you off of my buddy list :o


Just some info about me for you.

----Basics------
Your gender: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
Single?: technically yes
If not, do you want to be?: I don't know
Birthdate: 11.23.82
Age you act: 35
Age you wish you were: 12
Your height: 5'8
Eye color: dark brown
Happy with it?: would be cool if i had sky blue eyes
Hair color: dark brown
Happy with it?: yes
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: lefty
Your living arrangement:: with my x
Your family: parents and 4 sisters
Have any pets?: nope
Whats your job?: Nike associate
Piercings?: no, but I'm thinking about getting my ears re-opened
Tattoos?: nope
Obsessions?: fitness, modeling, sugar, bread, cheese
Addictions?: JS, diet blogs, the news
Do you speak another language?: no
Do you have a webpage?: www.geocities.com/woeisemma/lost.html . Once I get my modeling portfolio large enough, I will launch a professional site. I have one great webdesigner in mind, but if you are interested in designing a site for me, let me know.

----Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it-----
Do you live in the moment?: Yes, but the past haunts me.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: If I ignore them, yes. Nasty creepy guys who ask me out make my skin crawl, so I can't tolerate them. I also can't tolerate sexist, rude men.
Do you have any secrets?: yes, plenty.
You hate yourself?: no
Do you like your handwriting?: yeah
Do you have any bad habits?: biting the skin around my nails
What is the compliment you get from most people?: your hair is so long
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: lonely, sad girl finds true happiness and love
What's your biggest fear?: getting into a bad car crash
Are you a loner?: Yes, and proud of it.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: staying healthy, looking fit, working, school, making sure my little sister is ok.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yeah, cuz I am da coolest.
Are you a daredevil?: depends who I'm with.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: I hate how quiet I am.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: Greatest strength is acheiving my goals. Greatest weakness is junk food.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Wish I didn't get migraines.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yes and no. Stress gets to me but I know I'll overcome it.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: regret not standing up for myself and my sisters
Do you think life has been good so far?: well, at least I'm not living on the street.
What do you like the most about your body?: My curves and my height.
And least?: my feet and thighs
Do you think you are good looking?: yeah, though sometimes I look in the mirror and say Ew.
Are you confident?: mostly yes, but depends on the situation.

--------Do You... -----
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: only on my breaks at work
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: I used to, but not anymore. I only chat to people I know in real life on Aim now.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: only if it starts to rain when I'm walking to the gym.
----Would or Have You Ever?------
Liked your voice?: yes, though I think it's kinda deep for a girl. I also have a little hillbilly twang that is embarassing sometimes.
Been out of the country?: no
Been in love?: yeah
Done drugs?: nope
Gone skinny dipping?: only in a jacuzzi, does that count?
Had a medical emergency?: yeah, broke my wrist and had chest pains.
Had surgery?: yes
Ran away from home?: no but I was close.
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?: no
Been picked on?: yes, a lot when I was younger.
Been on stage?: yeah
Slept outdoors?: yes, in a tent on a trampoline. Thought about suicide?: yeah iwasthisclose
Pulled an all nighter?: yes, I had insomnia for a few months.
Gone one day without food?: I went three days w/out food.
Talked on the phone all night?: yes
Slept all day?: yeah
Killed someone?: only in my head
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: no
Been betrayed?: hmm
Had a dream that came true?: yes, I think I have some psychic powers
Broken the law?: plenty of times
Met a famous person?: Don't think so, but Joey Fatone from Nsync winked at me.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no, that's gross
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: when I was younger
Stolen anything?: yeah, when I was in highschool. I did it for the rush.
Been on radio/tv?: radio yes, tv no
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: no
Bungee jumped?: nope
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes when i was younger, it was scary


I did 1 hour of cardio today. Weight today: 135.

It was from my sister's journal.Interesting stuff. Was this from an email or like an online dating thing? Guess I'll take you off of my buddy list :o

Not that you asked for any advice or comments, but I'm going to give some.

Don't leave JS, but stop keeping a public journal - write about how you feel somewhere else, read it over, and then lock it away or burn it. Keeping a journal is still a good way to manage stress and sort out your feelings, but it's a burden. You can still lurk here, lend help to others, or just read responses. Or not, just go away if that's what you'd like to do. (We'll miss you, but we'll respect your choice.)

Don't chronicle your eating habits at all. Don't journal your eating habits. Change your fitday password to some long string of numbers you can't remember and never log in again.

Eat what you like and exercises how you like. At first you may go overboard and eat everything in sight; if you do so, after a while you'll naturally slow it down as you get reconcerned about your weight. Don't feel guilty, what is food for? It's for eating, and you should damn well eat what you want and as little or as much as you like.

Throw out your scale, don't take measurements, don't even take pictures. Or do. Take John Stone style pictures at some arbitrary interval. Does it look like you need to lose more weight? Increase your exercise and eat less. Do you look good? Eat whatever you like, you can always get rid of it again. Eat how you want to eat and evaluate youself based on you, not what some crazy scale, graph, or measurement is telling you.

If modeling is driving you crazy, stop. I see beautiful people all the time, but that doesn't mean they need to model. If you like the idea of dressing yourself up (or down), doing the hair and make-up, and getting your picture taken then model for yourself: work towards getting a nice camera, and learning about lighting and all the fancy camera stuff, and then do it yourself. Do what you desire to do.

Set up some goals that don't involve measuring girths, weights, and percents. Write down that you want to be able to run a mile in eight minutes, hold a handstand for five seconds, swim a mile, or be completely silent for a week. Do what strikes your fancy.

I agree with chicanerous. Happiness is key. Stop counting calories and eat junk food. Routine often kills the soul and when you are counting calories day in day out that is a routine. Take time off. Do something cool. Concentrate on another aspect of your persona. You say you are quiet and reserved, well see what it feels like to be loud and impulsive. Meet new people, you may meet someone and spend a good few hours talking to them and never see them again but those two hours were fun, they passed some of their beliefes and ideas onto you and you did the same for them. Hey you may even meet your new best friend. Also about JS there is no need to quit since you are not quiting really, you are just not as active as you once were, there is no quiting involved.
Whatever you do good luck!

P.s
Birthdate: 12.12.80
Age you act: 6
Age you wish you were: 6

Not that you asked for any advice or comments, but I'm going to give some.

Greater words have never been spoken by a teenager!

Good on ya, chicanerous. You're quite mature.

Ken

Go chicanerous.

The only thought I would add:

Perhaps the most useful thing I've learned in my life is to confront times when I felt down about myself or life in general with overwhelming positive action. Instead of retreating, grit your teeth and engage more fully. Instead of letting negative emotions determine actions, strength your mind by reading every positive, constructive thing you possible can. I've never felt like doing this, but built a trigger so that I feel I MUST do it. It's made all the difference in my life. The only reasons problems exist are to make us stronger, and to teach us something.

Does this sound stupid? Probably. But it works, which isn't a bad criteria to use when judging whether or not do something.

Anyway, I hope you'll stick around. After you've learned how to overcome this challenge, you'll be a great inspriation and teacher for others that go through the same thing in the future.

Don't go to her old site, especially if you are at work, she has some pretty disturbing porn on her site.

Don't go to her old site, especially if you are at work, she has some pretty disturbing porn on her site.

What do you mean? When I go to her site is just says its cannot be found. :confused:

What do you mean? When I go to her site is just says its cannot be found. :confused:

O Jeez!!! Nevermind! That is pretty terrifying! :eek:

just curious. always looked at her transformation . thought it to be pretty inspirational. what is her web page it seems to be missing from the sigs now.

I've been wondering where Emma has been lately as well...come back to us Woe!! :D

Hi :)
Woe is BACK!

I am back because:

I haven't really made any progress in the last few months - which is OK with me because I still am not sure what I want to do with my body.

I have maintained by body weight of 130 lbs, but I think my body fat % has gone up a few.

I had my free day yesterday, but today I ate the leftovers of my calzone and cinnamon buns. NOT GOOD.

I need to be held accountable, and I hope having a public journal will help me get back on track.

* Because of my school and work schedule, I can only work out 4 days a week - Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
I plan on doing 45 min - 1 hour of cardio three days a week. Two days a week I will lift weights for 45 min.

Goals: My ultimate goal is to have toned arms and to lose the saddlebags.

Tomorrow's food will look like:

9:30am
2 egg whites, 1 whole egg
1 serving plain oatmeal

11:30am
1 serving low fat cottage cheese
1/2 cup peaches
banana (b/c today might be their last day due to their ripeness plus I needed about 100 more cals)

12:30-1:45pm
CLASS

2pm
Chickenless Chicken Parmesan w/ Lean Cuisine Spaghetti

3:30pm
1 hour of cardio

5:30pm
3 oz No Name steak
1/4 cup brown rice
1 cup chopped broccoli

7:30pm
1 fat free 100 cal Skinny Cow Fudge Bar

*Oh, I'd like to mention that I no longer find it necessary to stuff myself till I go crosseyed and fall over on my free days.

Welcome back...i guess the next thing for you is to sort out some goals...hard to go anywhere without goals

yay welcome back! i wish i didnt feel the need to stuff myself until my stomach pops on NON FREE DAYS :(

good luck!!

I was searching through some of my old websites and I found a picture of myself from December 2002. This pic was to be my start picture for the Body For Life challenge that I didn't complete. Unlike the majority of my old fat pictures, this one is a full body shot. I remember I was flexing my entire body SO hard in this pic, yet you can't see any muscles. The other pic is from June 28, 2004. I haven't taken any recent weightloss pix b/c I'm afraid I haven't made any progress. I am still 130 lbs, and low 20s in BF. Once I graduate in May 2005, I plan to train hard, eat more clean, and be completely proud of my body.

Woe-
I hear ya, I think since summer ended and school started I've slacked big time too! Your pictures are an inspiration. Its great to see such stark contrast between the products of two different lifestyles! I think especially for those of us out there that are really working toward the kind of improvement you've shown, its motivational to know how hard you've worked to achieve the kind of fit look that you've achieved!
Keep up the good work,
-Andrew

Thanks Lemon :cool: It's not that I've been slacking, it's that I don't have the time to work out 5 days a week now due to school, work, and an internship. I can't wait to graduate so I can dedicate more time to working out. I REALLY want to have toned arms and a body similar to Guava's.
I have to brag that even though it took me 9 MONTHS, I NO LONGER NEED TO BINGE ONCE A WEEK!!!!! I might go two weeks w/out a free day, when before I was craving my next free day three days after the last one.

Here is something fun I found..and I want to do it to see what I have done and what things I still need to do..

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said ‘I love you’ and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightening storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby’s diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don’t
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off-lol like I'm gonna admit that
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a cheque
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your MP or MPP
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. …more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone’s heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 160 KM/h
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than Canadian Procinces
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. …and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

Excellent list. I've done 71 of the 200.


Andrew.

71..holy crap!

Excellent list. I've done 71 of the 200.


Andrew.

I REALLY want to have toned arms and a body similar to Guava's.

Well, that's interesting. Just about a year ago I gave up on wishing I had a body exactly like the one you have right now. You can't get much closer to perfection than that white bikini-clad pose. Anyway, once I focused on building my own version of beauty instead of trying to look like someone else, it became much easier for me. Being the best me that I can be is achievable, but trying to become Cindy Crawford is pretty much a waste of my time. I know you don't mean literally that you want to look like I look, but it's flattering nonetheless to have reached a point that others aspire to.

Your list, I like. It's interesting to think of random accomplishments and contemplate the amazing things that we've done so far with our lives. Yes, I am proud that I've danced with a stranger in a foreign country. Now excuse me while I go find a beggar to have a meaningful conversation with.

71..holy crap!

I can say I've done 88 of them. About 10 are "iffy"... but I counted 'em. So you could whittle it down to 78...

-R

74. I'm debating listing them :D

74. I'm debating listing them :D Especially if you answered yes to #150.

Andrew.

I was searching through some of my old websites and I found a picture of myself from December 2002. This pic was to be my start picture for the Body For Life challenge that I didn't complete. Unlike the majority of my old fat pictures, this one is a full body shot. I remember I was flexing my entire body SO hard in this pic, yet you can't see any muscles. The other pic is from June 28, 2004. I haven't taken any recent weightloss pix b/c I'm afraid I haven't made any progress. I am still 130 lbs, and low 20s in BF. Once I graduate in May 2005, I plan to train hard, eat more clean, and be completely proud of my body.

Woe, woe woe.

First, welcome back and good for you! I'm "Back" myself!

I know you've heard it all a million times but you don't believe it. Your body at 130 is absolutely, stunningly gorgeous. Furthermore, your improvement from that week 2 photo is amazing! My girlfriend is much closer to where you were in week 2 then you are at 130 and I will be using you as a reference to her in her fitness goals (She has recently asked me for help and whatnot)

With that said, YOU being completely proud of your own body is something you can only define for yourself, from THIS man's perspective your body is very drool worthy.

I'm with Guava on this one...What is your ideal you are striving for? You already have a body that most women (and men!) would kill for! You might have unattainable/unrealistic goals.

-Allen

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lol :)Especially if you answered yes to #150.

Andrew.

Guava, you have the arms I hope to own some day. The toned arms are what I WANT! I am so envious of women with toned arms that I have almost gotten(is that a word?) up the courage to ask toned-armed-women what they do for exercise to get that look. I guess I am so envious because I have the skinny part down, but I want to look strong and healthy. Anyone can be skinny-16 year old girls are skinny- but I want to look athletic because I consider working out and eating healthy a large part of my life and I need some evidence to prove myself when people act amazed that I lift weights.

AKM3: Why were you gone from the boards? Have you ever posted your progress pictures?

Thanks for the compliments. I really don't know what my problem is(low self esteem, bad self image?). Lately I want to be thinner. 125. Or less. I think I want my body to look better because I am lacking in other areas that would make me feel good about myself(clothes, hair, makeup,materialistic things, due to lack of money). The only thing I can control is my weight and the grades I get in school. My ideal..I really don't know. I think I want to look in the mirror and say "Wow, I have muscles." Or maybe I want to walk into my college weight room and feel like I belong there. Therapy?
I thought Katie Uter was my ideal, but now I think she is too muscular for my taste.

Yes, it does. Bigger boobs, tighter stomach, hack an inch or two off my thighs. Some day. It doesn't get much, if any, better than that my friend...

104 give or take. I've had a good life and it keeps getting better! :D

Guava, you have the arms I hope to own some day. The toned arms are what I WANT! I am so envious of women with toned arms that I have almost gotten(is that a word?) up the courage to ask toned-armed-women what they do for exercise to get that look.
It's a little tricky, yeah. It DOES take a lot of hard work to get the muscle that I have. Now I know it's true when they say you don't just bulk up overnight. Ten months of heavy weight lifting and I still don't look like the incredible hulk. :lol:
Sometimes I wonder about people that ask for fitness advice. I think most people are hoping for some easier answer than "Keep adding weights to your 2 pound dumbbells until you can curl 18 pounds." But, Emma, you've demonstrated that you have the determination and the patience to get to the spot where you want to be.
I really don't know what my problem is(low self esteem, bad self image?). Lately I want to be thinner. 125. Or less. I think I want my body to look better because I am lacking in other areas that would make me feel good about myself(clothes, hair, makeup,materialistic things, due to lack of money). The only thing I can control is my weight and the grades I get in school. My ideal..I really don't know. I think I want to look in the mirror and say "Wow, I have muscles." Or maybe I want to walk into my college weight room and feel like I belong there. Therapy?

Yeah, I could go for some therapy. But going to the gym is cheaper, and it gives me similar results, I think. It was a couple of months ago that a friend of mine asked me, as he was drooling over my shoulders "Why are you losing so much weight? Stop it." So I explained to him that this is one of the few things in my life that I have control over. My time in the gym belongs to me, and me only. And all the successes that I make in there are MY successes. They are all a reflection of the power that I have inside me.

You're not allowed to have bigger boobs. Share the wealth.

It's a little tricky, yeah. It DOES take a lot of hard work to get the muscle that I have. Now I know it's true when they say you don't just bulk up overnight. Ten months of heavy weight lifting and I still don't look like the incredible hulk. :lol:
Sometimes I wonder about people that ask for fitness advice. I think most people are hoping for some easier answer than "Keep adding weights to your 2 pound dumbbells until you can curl 18 pounds." But, Emma, you've demonstrated that you have the determination and the patience to get to the spot where you want to be.

Yeah, I could go for some therapy. But going to the gym is cheaper, and it gives me similar results, I think. It was a couple of months ago that a friend of mine asked me, as he was drooling over my shoulders "Why are you losing so much weight? Stop it." So I explained to him that this is one of the few things in my life that I have control over. My time in the gym belongs to me, and me only. And all the successes that I make in there are MY successes. They are all a reflection of the power that I have inside me.

You're not allowed to have bigger boobs. Share the wealth.
LOL :) What you said was great. I can curl more than 18 lbs though..and still no visible muscles. I've been weight training for about 6 months.
Do you know what happened to Trinity, Freemason, or Chim-Chim? I know Trinity took a break b/c she was thinking about fitness too much..but what about the others?

Around 10:30pm tonight I got a little depressed and lonely. I was also hungry..and since yesterday I had a free "night" and not a free "day", I decided to have two huney buns and a handful of peanut M&Ms tonight. Those three things brought my daily caloric intake to about 2500. I burned about 600 cals on the bike and did 35 min of upper body today so I think I should be fine. I just finished looking at the 2004 Arnold Classic Expo pix and I feel pretty crappy right now. I would LOVE to look like the fitness booth girls at the show; big fake boobs and all.

I've realized I normally binge when I'm lonely. I think this is because part of me thinks "no one cares what I look like anyway.." so that justifies my wanting to binge. :d_redface

Nice to see you again, Woe. Hope things are going well.

Well, looks like I'm slacking. Only done 50 of the things on the list..... :lol:

Yep, great to see you back Woe! I don't know if I should be happy or sad that I checked off 68 things on that list.

Woe: we should be motivation enough! just think about how excited and motivated everyone is that you are back! your transformation has been AWESOME and i cant wait to see what lies ahead for you. you've definitely inspired me :D

Dont feel lonely or depressed.... You've made an awesome transformation and you have the whole JSF community to show when ever you make more progress towards your goal.

Sometimes I feel lonely but then I stop and think about all the things I have going and get more motivated and work harder to reach my goals.

Hope you feel better, and are able to accomplish your goals.

Thanks guys :) Your kind words helped because tonight, Saturday, I was home alone while the b/f was at a bar so I did feel lonely ALLL night..but I didn't turn to food!
Life sucks when you have no friends and no money. :rolleyes:

I'm proud of myself. I've completed the first month of my senior year and I have 4 A's and 1 B(Shakespeare - BLAH).

For my next free day I have a desire to see if I can eat an entire small cheese pizza by myself.

Dont feel lonely or depressed.... You've made an awesome transformation and you have the whole JSF community to show when ever you make more progress towards your goal.

Sometimes I feel lonely but then I stop and think about all the things I have going and get more motivated and work harder to reach my goals.

Hope you feel better, and are able to accomplish your goals.

Here are my first few entries in Fitday - July 2002. (The only thing I knew about losing weight was I had to keep my calories low - preferrably under 1200 when I weighed around 150.)


Total: 1100
Fat: 45 405 37%
Sat: 11 99 9%
Poly: 0 0 0%
Mono: 0 0 0%
Carbs: 163 636 58%
Fiber: 4 0 0%
Protein: 16 64 6%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%

That equals: 24 onces of Pepsi, 2 pieces Texas Toast, and Fetticinni Alfredo.
exercise: none

Next day:

Total: 450
Fat: 9 77 17%
Sat: 4 32 7%
Poly: 0 0 0%
Mono: 0 0 0%
Carbs: 82 328 71%
Fiber: 0 0 0%
Protein: 14 56 12%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%
This consisted of: A ham and cheese sandwich and an orange pop.
Exercise: 41 min on treadmill

This of course caused me to lose a few pounds of water weight but I would binge and gain it right back. This went on for about a year.

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Tomorrow I am going to try my hardest to eat as clean as I can. I took my measurements tonight and they are really pathetic. 22 inch thighs..27 inch waist. At 5'8'', 130lbs, and a size 4 in pants, I can't believe how large my thighs and waist are. My hips are 35in so it's really frustrating having such a large waist.

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I graduate from college in May 2005 with a degree in English, but I think I am going to go back to school to become a Registered Dietician. :claplow: Anyone know anyone who is a RD?

I took my measurements tonight and they are really pathetic. 22 inch thighs..27 inch waist. At 5'8'', 130lbs, and a size 4 in pants, I can't believe how large my thighs and waist are. My hips are 35in so it's really frustrating having such a large waist.

:rolleyes: :whistle:

With numbers like that, you should be quite pleased.

No, I will be pleased when my thighs are 20in and my waist is 25 :):rolleyes: :whistle:

With numbers like that, you should be quite pleased.

Weight today after two free days in a row: 135
Weight before I have another free day: 128
Goal weight: 125

Exercise for today: 30 min cardio on bike, and legs
Food: low carb

When there's a group of guys lifting weights together, and when I walk through their group they all fucking stare at me like they're sizing me up - god forbid a GIRL use THEIR WEIGHTS. Then the bozo next to the machine I was gonna use that was free says "I'm using that one too." OK USE ONE MACHINE JERK! Then I hear one of them say "there's always one girl who gets in the way" OK STFU. THAT IS WHY I WANT TO LOOK TONED SO THEY BACK THE F OFF.

you should totally call them out on it and get up in their face next time. they would look like such an ass to anyone else that heard their stupid comment

and next time, just ask the guy if you can work in with him while he uses two machines at once miraculously. maybe he can use the machine that YOU want to use while you are taking a break.

sorry you go to a gym with such jackasses. people around here are pretty considerate with the limited space we have.

i too graduate in may 2005 but im just beginning getting my resume together and starting the trek to find a job! scary!!

good luck becoming a RD. sounds fun!

Well, if this helps, it's not just the guys.

I've got the she-man bully that follows me around and
says "you done ?" , every 30 seconds. Wassup with that ?
100 machines and she's got to be in my face no matter
how many open machines there are...

maybe she likes you :D

I'm skipping ALL my classes today!! :) First time I've skipped a full day of classes all semester so I'm fine. I'd probaby never skip if I didnt have stupid shakespeare at 9am.

Weight: 133.5-down 1.5 lbs from yesterday
eating plan for today: low carb(gets rid of my free day bloat quicker)
exercise: possibly 45 min cardio, will make it 5 exercise days this week.
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Anyone know anyone who cuts themselves on their wrists? It is called self-injury. Please PM me if you do.

I'd probaby never skip if I didnt have stupid shakespeare at 9am.

"Though this be madness, yet there is method in 't." :p

I'm skipping ALL my classes today!! :) First time I've skipped a full day of classes all semester so I'm fine. I'd probaby never skip if I didnt have stupid shakespeare at 9am.

Weight: 133.5-down 1.5 lbs from yesterday
eating plan for today: low carb(gets rid of my free day bloat quicker)
exercise: possibly 45 min cardio, will make it 5 exercise days this week.
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Anyone know anyone who cuts themselves on their wrists? It is called self-injury. Please PM me if you do.

It is good sometimes to say, just bag it for the day.

You've been making such excellent progress. It si so motivating to me. I cannot yet imagine myself lifting for 10 months. I am just trying to get myself to do my body pump classes twice a week with Pilates twicw a week along with Cardio for 4x. Not there yet but getting closer.

Your pics are great! :cool:

I was wondering why you have your signature line about somove who is cutting (their wrists). Are you a psych major?

Hi Justitia,
I'm not a psych major. The self-injury question concerns a family member who cuts herself and I am getting frustrated with her.
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Today's weight: 133
Exercise goals for this week:
Tuesday: 30-45 min cardio at 10:30am, upper body at 8pm
Wednesday: 1 hour of cardio
Thursday: 30-45 min cardio at 10:30am, lower body at 8pm

Anybody watch UPN's America's Next Top Model? That show is such a confidence downer! Ugh, the girls on there are so thin. The girls who are my height are a good 10-15 lbs lighter than me.
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I think for my next round of photos, I am going to secretly spray myself down with oil or water and then apologize for looking sweaty b/c I just got done with an intense workout :p

I think for my next round of photos, I am going to secretly spray myself down with oil or water and then apologize for looking sweaty b/c I just got done with an intense workout :p

That will actually do a lot to help your definition in your pictures. JS always applied lotion before his daily photo. It's hard to look defined with dry skin.

As for the 'top models', they're too thin. An athletic physique like what you're building will look better and you can maintain it well into your 40's and 50's if you work hard. Those skinny chicks will not look good when they're older unless they hit the weights too.

I think for my next round of photos, I am going to secretly spray myself down with oil or water and then apologize for looking sweaty b/c I just got done with an intense workout :p

Too funny. I noticed that too. I'm waiting for the first person to tell the truth. "I took a picture, but couldn't see any muscle definition, so I greased myself up and look much more ripped now. Here's the pic." :lol:

:D If I remember, I will spray myself with water before the next shoot and see if there is any difference.


Too funny. I noticed that too. I'm waiting for the first person to tell the truth. "I took a picture, but couldn't see any muscle definition, so I greased myself up and look much more ripped now. Here's the pic." :lol:

Today is supposed to be my free day, but I'm skipping it. I don't know when my next free day will be. My weight this morning was 132.5. I will feel comfortable having a free day once I see 130 or 129. My short term goal is 128 and long term is 125.

I ate 1750-1800 cals yesterday, no exercise, but was at school and work from 8am-9pm so I was moving around all day/night, and I lost .5 :) I can't believe I used to eat 1350 cals a day plus exercise for 45 min. I have to really limit my food intake now to get close to 1350.

My self esteem issues are beginning to haunt me in my sleep...
This morning I woke up almost crying b/c my dream was about me and two other girls. One of the girls was very attractive- tall, thin, pretty face though she had a weird, flat nose, and brown curly, near shoulder length hair. She was wearing a revealing outfit, something like a dark tight shirt and a black short skirt. My boyfriend was with me when I was talking to them. When my b/f and I were alone, I asked him if he thought the curly haired girl was more attractive than me, and he said Yes, because she has curly hair(he loves curly hair). I got really upset and woke up while I was making this weird almost-crying noise. :confused:

Woe: you are smoking hot right now. Everyone on this board has told you that. You just need to be surrounded by more supportive people - like us!

good luck continuing with the cut and dont stress so much about what other people think of you! just be happy with all that you've achieved and who YOU are as a person, which is an incredible smart, decidicated, awesome person! :D

Thanks Marcman! And you're right, I DO need to be surrounded by positive people. Should we form our own town with John as Mayor?Woe: you are smoking hot right now. Everyone on this board has told you that. You just need to be surrounded by more supportive people - like us!

good luck continuing with the cut and dont stress so much about what other people think of you! just be happy with all that you've achieved and who YOU are as a person, which is an incredible smart, decidicated, awesome person! :D

Thanks Marcman! And you're right, I DO need to be surrounded by positive people. Should we form our own town with John as Mayor?

Yes we should! If you are still having negative body image issues with how you look right now, you are at serious risk of developing eating disorders/other psychological problems.

Step back and re-evaluate.

-Allen

woe - I just recently joined the forums and so I missed your whole transformation...

BUT

If thats you in your avatar then you are smoking hot. I know if I walked past you in public, I'd get a smack from my fiancee cuz my eyes would be following you... honestly, you have the body of a swimsuit model.

(Please dont think I am some creepy internet stalker drooling over you. I just dont think you need to worry about losing any weight with the body you have now. Just maintain it.)

Hey Allen,
I have already gone through the eating disorder phase when I was 15-18. I was anorexic before I met my b/f, and I gained 30 lbs so quickly b/c I finally began to eat. I know better now and will never develop an eating disorder again. I do sometimes exercise too much, and I could see myself falling into that disorder, not sure what it's called, exercise nervosa? I know I have an image problem because a few weeks ago while I was at work, these two ladies told me I was very pretty, and I responded surprised, "REALLY? I thought I looked ugly today." I KNOW I could really benefit from counseling, but with insurance it's $1500 for three months. Yes we should! If you are still having negative body image issues with how you look right now, you are at serious risk of developing eating disorders/other psychological problems.

Step back and re-evaluate.

-Allen

(Please dont think I am some creepy internet stalker drooling over you. I just dont think you need to worry about losing any weight with the body you have now. Just maintain it.)

haha...yeah, I had thought about writing comments on woe's 'hotness' but didn't want to come off that way either...

haha...yeah, I had thought about writing comments on woe's 'hotness' but didn't want to come off that way either...

there are PLENTY of other threads where many other guys have done just that, so im sure she's used to it :lol:

Thanks lostmind,
Yes, my avatar is me :) I think I'm going to upload all my progress pix in my journal. And..well..in real life I look more like a plain jane..so I don't think your eyes would follow me. When I'm out with my b/f he looks at anything that is skinny so I guess that adds fuel to my fire to be thinner. Every guy looks at other girls, prettier than me or not, so I need to get over it. Oh, and I've been maintaining my avatar pic for almost 4 months, so I'm getting bored! I need to do something.woe - I just recently joined the forums and so I missed your whole transformation...

BUT

If thats you in your avatar then you are smoking hot. I know if I walked past you in public, I'd get a smack from my fiancee cuz my eyes would be following you... honestly, you have the body of a swimsuit model.

(Please dont think I am some creepy internet stalker drooling over you. I just dont think you need to worry about losing any weight with the body you have now. Just maintain it.)

Ok yeah, getting compliments online are plentifull, but how come no goodlooking guys in real life compliment me? :( Don't answer..I'm just whining. Only WOMEN have told me I'm beautiful or very pretty at work. How weird is that? It's actually very flattering to be complimented by another woman, bc they are just being nice and not wanting anything in return. I'm going to upload my old progress pix tomorrow.there are PLENTY of other threads where many other guys have done just that, so im sure she's used to it :lol:

AdvantEdge's Cafe Caramel protein shake tastes pretty good.

It has:

110 cals
3 grams fat
1 carb
15 gram protein

Ok yeah, getting compliments online are plentifull, but how come no goodlooking guys in real life compliment me? :( Don't answer..I'm just whining. Only WOMEN have told me I'm beautiful or very pretty at work. How weird is that? It's actually very flattering to be complimented by another woman, bc they are just being nice and not wanting anything in return. I'm going to upload my old progress pix now.*hmm..I reformatted my comp, but my b/f took an image of it..and my weightloss pix arent anywhere to be found..wonder where they all WENT??

it's cause guys are intimidated by hot girls. at least i am. we got poor self esteems too ya know. you know the story of the hot girl that cant get any dates because she's TOO HOT and everyone is scared to ask her out.
:o

:tu:

Starting weight in pix: 150
Ending weight in pix: 127
Height: 5'8
Age: 21

Starting pix are from Winter 2003
Ending pix are from June 24 2004

Will take recent pix when I reach 125(currently 132)

Order of pix:
Left-150, second from left-140, third from left-127, Right-back 150
left bottom-back 127

Wow, almost 100 hits to my journal since I posted my pix yesterday.

This was the first week I didn't have a free DAY. Last night I had my first FREE MEAL. I had a plateful of mosticholi w/ sausage and mozz cheese, a can of RC, and a serving or two of trail mix. A great thing about a free meal is the scale showed only a 1 lb gain.

Last week: 135
This week: 133
Next week's goal: 131
Week after that: 129
week after that: 127
week after that: 125 - goal

So, HOPEFULLY by my birthday I will be 125.

I have a cold - again! I had a very bad cold the first week of September. I had a normal sneezy, runny nose cold for about two weeks after that, and now I have a little sore throat, headache, stuffy head cold. I get to deal with customers all day til 6:30!! You don't know how irritating it is to answer the question "where is the bathroom" every five minutes. Then, because the bathroom is in a store with a very unique name, I always have to repeat myself b/c the first time around the customer doesn't get it. "Where's the nearest bathroom?" "Do ya'll have a bathroom?" AHHHHHHHHHHH. Then, after they are disappointed they actually have to walk down the street to use the bathroom, they ask "do you have any LiveStrong bands?" "Do you have any of those yellow rubberband thingies?" NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! 1,110,000,000,000,000,00 of them are on backorder, so you won't ever get one!
This one blonde customer yesterday..I asked her if she wanted to pay with Debit or Credit, and she said, "Well it's American Express, which one is that?" HUH? Lady you don't understand the difference between Debit and Credit?

Anyways,
Today's weight: 131.5
Exercise this week: 4 days
Goal weight: 125 by November 23.

Hey Emily... any chance you can get me one of those LiveStrong bands?

:p


Feel better!

Left work 3 hours early-couldn't stand the aching pain in my back, head, and neck. Had some thera-flu, took a nap, woke up and finished my Shakespeare paper. I'm feeling better though I'm still a little achy. Calories were a little high - almost 1900 with no exercise, so I won't see any loss tomorrow. My goal is to see 130 by Thursday morning. Tomorrow's plan:
work 10-7
eat about 1750 cals
review Shake paper
read for 1-2 hours
sleep.
FUN! :d_eek:

Oh, and I WILL donate once I have the money..which will probably be after I graduate and secure a good job.

eeek! feel better. im just getting over my 2 week cold, hopefully yours wont last as long.
good luck with your goals! :D

Thanks Marcman

I'm still sick :( and I have to go to work in 20 min till 9pm WAHHH The ONLY thing I enjoy about being sick is the lack of appetite. My nose is stuffed so I can't taste any food, so the enjoyment of eating is gone. I think I only have a viral infection and not strep, so about 5 more days of feeling like crap. Probably won't work out this week which is HORRIBLE. I have a huge quiz to study for tomorrow night, then I get to write a paper Wednesday night, then study Shakespeare all weekend. :( :( eeek! feel better. im just getting over my 2 week cold, hopefully yours wont last as long.
good luck with your goals! :D

Last week's weight: 133
this week's goal: 131
weight today: 131 :tu:

I think I am finally getting better. Have more of a head cold right now and thankfully my throat doesnt hurt as much. I'm not going to work out today. I just want to RELAX.

Still sick. I now have a cough with a sore throat. My energy is better. I have been living off Thera-flu and Nyquil for 5 days now. If I don't have strep, my sore throat should be gone in 2-5 more days.
Weight today: 130.5
Goal weight: 125


I was just thinking how not being elligible for Financial Aid really screwed up my life this year. If only I didn't have to worry about affording school, I could actually buy myself some clothes and other little things I need. I'd be in much better spirits if I didn't have to wear bummy clothes every day and if only I could afford to go to the DR. I think it's BS that you are only considered legally independent when you are over the age of 24. WTF. That makes NO SENSE. I am 21, and have been independent (as in 100% paying for myself in every way) since I was 20. I can't even take out loans for school b/c I don't have enough calateral. You'd think the government would HELP ME OUT so I can go to college, but they are f-ing me over. What got me going on this rant is I received my Stafford Loan receipt yesterday for the last three years when I was able to get fin aid. They have my first payment starting on THIS November. Hello, I'm STILL IN SCHOOL, starting my 4th year. Payments start 6 months AFTER you graduate. So I get to call them up tomorrow and see wtf is up.

You'll be able to defer them easily. You may have to fill out a form, or just call up the people handling the loan and ask them to verify you're still in school through the national student clearinghouse website. They should know what that is. And then you will be able to have what is called a full-time school deferment. Where you don't pay until after you are out of school. Even if you go half time, you won't have to pay anything. Hope you feel better.

Thanks :)You'll be able to defer them easily. You may have to fill out a form, or just call up the people handling the loan and ask them to verify you're still in school through the national student clearinghouse website. They should know what that is. And then you will be able to have what is called a full-time school deferment. Where you don't pay until after you are out of school. Even if you go half time, you won't have to pay anything. Hope you feel better.

I hear ya on the fin-aid BS. Its horrendous! I get fin-aid but still have to work my ass off to make sure I stay afloat. One of my friends works full time and goes to school full time. He's lucky though because he's getting a business degree (which is pretty easy) and he has scheduled all his classes for tuesdays and thursdays for the last two years.
One thing that helped me was to apply for scholarships. I applied to my schools general scholarship application and got $4000 over two years. All that for writing an essay on how the world needs to change its ways. Good stuff!
Just think of it this way: Any trouble that you have getting through college will be worth the satisfaction of knowing that you finished college. Regardless of your income, your popularity with yourself will be much improved.
im in the same boat, working full time and going to school full time. i was taking 16 credits at first but then went down to 12. it got to be too much right now. :spaz:

Today turned into a free day. Didn't exercise this week due to having a bad cold, so I wasn't sure if I deserved a free day. But I met my goal weight for the week, and since I only had a free meal last week, I decided to gooooo fooorrrr ittttt. I had:
Arby's Chicken Cordon Blue with medium curly fries & med Pepsi
two granola bars
two servings Snyders
1 king size Baby Ruth
1 serving Snickers ice cream
1 calzone
3 mozzerella sticks
2 cups Thera-flu

I *think* my sore throat is going away. My energy is almost high enough to work out. Tomorrow marks 7 days of having a sore throat. I've been coughing for the last three days. I seem to cough more when I'm laying down trying to sleep, anyone know why? This week was so stressful with work, school, and being sick. It didn't help that my b/f was lazy(sleeping in till 3pm!) and didn't clean a thing. I get to write a paper every week until my birthday at the end of November! Can't wait for November to be over.
I think it's interesting to see which members have donated and who haven't. There are some members who have been on this board since the beginning, who are here A LOT, and who I know have money to donate to this site, but for some reason, they haven't donated. For me, there are two reasons why I haven't donated yet. 1) money. I'm probably the poorest person here(no joke). 2)I want to wait till I graduate in May and get a better job so I can buy more than a $10 membership. I guess reasons 1&2 are really combined. So money is the reason I haven't donated yet. Why haven't YOU donated?

Plan for the coming week: 4 days of exercise, will cross my fingers to see 130 by next Thursday/Friday

emma, i havent donated due to financial concerns as well. i plan to in the near future tho, maybe after some possibly *profitable* holidays coming up....*crosses fingers*

hah, who am i kidding.

After not exercising for a week due to a severe cold and having a huge free day last week, I was scared to step on the scale today. "Please Scale God don't let me weigh 138"...I weighed in at 131, PHEW. Tonight I had my free meal which was about 3-4 servings of Snickers ice cream which totaled apprx 650 cals. Total cals for today were 2300, and exercise was 1 hour and 20 min of cardio. My goal is to weigh 130 by next Thursday.

what school do you attend?

UW-Milwaukee

what school do you attend?

I haven't worked out with weights in three weeks.:o First two weeks were b/c of my severe cold, and this week I was more concerned with burning calories. I didn't have time to work out twice a day like I normally do when I lift, so I decided to choose cardio. Tomorrow is weigh-in and I'm scurrred. My cals were a little high for 3 days, around 1800-2100, but these last three days I have kept them between 1300-1500 before exercise. I am expecting to maintain. Hopefully this weekend I can have a Calzone and a pint of Starbuck's low fat latte ice cream once I lose the 1 lb. My fav songs to work out to right now are:
Broken - Seether & Amy Lee
Let's Go - Twista, Lil Jon, & Trick Daddy
Break Away- Kelly Clarkson
Over & Over - Nelly, Tim McGraw
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School rant
I have to say that Linguistics BLOWS. I had no idea there was so much crap to know about the English language. Ever notice how your tongue touches different areas of your mouth or lips when you say different words? I had the pleasure of memorizing where your tongue goes when you pronounce each letter of the alphabet. Did you realize some letters are voiceless while others are voiced? Probably not. 1.5 more months...
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My guilty pleasure is the reality show, America's Next Top Model, and I felt so bad for this beautiful girl, Cassie. I thought she was gonna win the modeling contract because she was the most beautiful and looked like a runway model, but her damn attitude cost her. She admitted to being bulimic, and the poor thing was told by a clothing designer that her hips were too big. He took out a tape measure and measured her hips - 39 inches. I was shocked considering mine are 35. But the poor girl's spirits were crushed and she didn't bounce back. I think YaYa is gonna win it.

My fav songs to work out to right now are:
Broken - Seether & Amy Lee


I love that song, she has a great voice, Seether's other songs just don't work without amy lee there.

3/4 of your fave workout songs are ballads. All quality songs, but how do they give you any motivation to bust your ass?

You should figure out why I like "Break Away" if you listen to the lyrics. It has to do with my situation. Over and Over makes me think about the future too, and the future is the only thing that KEEPS ME GOING. :db: 3/4 of your fave workout songs are ballads. All quality songs, but how do they give you any motivation to bust your ass?

I read this in Oxygen magazine, and I just had to post it somewhere for women to see.

More than 40 different studies on the pill found no proof that it adds pounds. Despite these findings, researchers say that women frequently stop taking the contraceptive because they believe it's making them fat.

I have been on birth control for years, and gained weight only because I ate like a pig for a year. The weight came off once I turned my life around. The pill didn't make me fat - the food I put into my mouth did.

I read this in Oxygen magazine, and I just had to post it somewhere for women to see.

More than 40 different studies on the pill found no proof that it adds pounds. Despite these findings, researchers say that women frequently stop taking the contraceptive because they believe it's making them fat.

I have been on birth control for years, and gained weight only because I ate like a pig for a year. The weight came off once I turned my life around. The pill didn't make me fat - the food I put into my mouth did.
The reason you 'ate like a pig' was because your hormones changed. It's like being pregnant or having PMS.
Why not use the bandade instead of the pill? Less hormones and it doesn't have to be changed too often.

No, actually, I was on the pill for three years before I gained weight. So, I didn't gain weight because my hormones changed - I ate more because of psychological reasons. I'm currently on a birth control method that was supposed to make me gain weight too, but I've lost over 30 lbs while being on it.

The reason you 'ate like a pig' was because your hormones changed. It's like being pregnant or having PMS.
Why not use the bandade instead of the pill? Less hormones and it doesn't have to be changed too often.[/QUOTE]

I made my weigh in!!! WOOOHOOO

:nod: :D :tucool:

I made my weigh in!!! WOOOHOOO

:nod: :D :tucool:

Grats! How about some motivational pics :) (No seriously)

HaHa :) I plan to take pix once I get to 125..which will probably be sometime in December. Though I won't be tan like I was in my older pix..so I might look worse.

Grats! How about some motivational pics :) (No seriously)

HaHa :) I plan to take pix once I get to 125..which will probably be sometime in December. Though I won't be tan like I was in my older pix..so I might look worse.

Pffffffffffft! :rolleyes: ;)

Hi Woe,

Glad the "Scales God" came through for you. I was injured for last 9 days and the Scales God was obviously annoyed with me, as he/she added 4 lbs of lard, and I am sure it is all on my stomach :mad:

Well Done!

Mark

I ate my first home-made protein shake earlier this week and I love it. It's a butterscotch/banana/vanilla whey shake with about 20 protein, 40 carbs, 5 fat. If anyone wants the recipe, let me know. I'll be having one for lunch and one for dinner tomorrow because my bananas are almost rotten.

I did 1 hour and 10 min of cardio today. I ate about 1700 cals today and I am STARVING right now! Tomorrow is my weigh in so I'm not eating any more tonight. I might be 1 pound over my goal of 129 because Monday I had a free night.

Tomorrow's breakfast will be a cottage cheese/blueberry meal that I've never tried before, so if it's good, I'll post the recipe here.

ONE MONTH LEFT TILL THE SEMESTER IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Next semester is going to be tough. All English classes again..
British Poetry
American Novel
Studies in American Lit
Studies in Women Writers
Senior Seminar in Literature

I still don't know what I'm gonna do after I graduate :confused:

I have decided to put the scale in the closet till Jan 1 2005. I won't be updating this journal much.

I didn't weigh myself for 4 days because I was not sticking to my diet. The only way for me to stop binging was to face reality and weigh myself. I only gained 1.5 lbs. :) Because of the massive carb bloat, I decided to eat low carb this week(under 20 carbs a day) and I have lost 4 lbs so far. I was bloated before the 1.5 weight gain, so the 4 lbs is probably all water. Regardless, I am at my lowest weight since the summer- I am now in the 120s! :) Tomorrow is my birthday and my free day. Last year I was 15 lbs heavier on my birthday.

I was addicted to Diet A&W, but now I am in love with Diet Sunkist. That stuff tastes better than the original. Ya know what I don't understand..the guy who is only drinking Pepsi Spice. Sad to say, but I only consume diet pops. I will drink a cup or two of water on the days I work out, but that is only three days a week. I drink about 3-5 cans of pop a day and I don't have the horrible reactions he is having to Pepsi Spice. Is it due to the massive amounts of pop he's drinking?

Overall today was a good day. I went to all my classes which always makes me feel like I accomplished something. I had a Shakespeare quiz today on Othello and King Lear, which was a cumulative quiz on 8 other Shakespearian plays. 90% of the quiz was quotes I had to identify, and I did pretty bad on that part. I will be relieved if I get a C on this quiz. I also had a quiz in Linguistics. I got a 48/50(96%) :) which made me happpy :) I was also giddy to see the snot next to me who likes to cheat off me got around a 35/50. She changed one of her answers to what I put, and I got it wrong so HAHHA to her.

I'm off to work.

Today was my bday and it was ok. I got a MuVo TX FM MP3 player and I'm excited to try it out..but I dont have any idea how to download music to it yet. I was stupid and spent $50 on junk food today. I bought bagels, mac&cheese, cake, cookies, chocolate milk, ice cream, candy... I planned on eating anything I wanted from today-thanksgiving, but I really don't want to anymore. I'm so close to my goal of 125 that if I binge for two more days I'll be back to 133-135. My plan is to eat low carb tomorrow and keep my cals low on Thanksgiving. I'm beginning to think one free day a week is too much. Maybe I will change it to a free day once every 10 days or something.
Plan for tomorrow:
not stepping on scale
Go to class @ 11am to drop off paper
big salad for lunch w/ peanuts
45 min cardio
big salad w/ peanuts for dinner
atkins ice cream bar for snack

Happy birthday!

Hey! I'm shocked you remembered! :) Thanks! :)

I have been pigging out for three days. This was a planned three day binge because I went a month without a free day or official cheat meal. I have been working out for about a year and half now. My ideal plan for 2005 would be to work out with weights more than I do cardio, or spend equal amounts of time on both. I stopped weight lifting in October because I got bored with my routine, and I have felt flabby ever since. I am going to *try* to get down to 120 just for the fun of it. In 8th grade I was 121, so it will be amazing if I get to that weight again.
I just have to tell you guys about THE rudest customer I had the joy of helping today, Christmas Eve. I've been a cashier for a year, and he wins the biggest a-hole award. This customer wanted to do an even exchange, which is fine. He didn't have an attitude yet. With every return/exchange, we need to see a photo id, even if you have the receipt. Once I asked for a photo id, his *she only asked me that because of my race* radar went off. He turned into this pissed off, head weaving, swearing monster saying "That's BULLSH--! That's Bullsh--! I ain't givin you my ID. I've never heard of that before. SHOW ME WHERE IT SAYS I NEED TO SHOW YOU MY ID!" I said, "Sir, our policy requires every customer doing a return to show us a photo id." I then happily turned his receipt over, pointed to the id requirement statement, and read it to him. He said with a cocky attitude, "Oh you're glad you were able to show me that." My heart is racing by now and I want to tell him to go to hell. He had the nerve to ask me to look up more shoes for him in the computer, but I didn't do it so he asked another girl to do it. He then said, "I'M NOT A BAD GUY- I GRADUATED FROM SCHOOL" I looked at him like he was crazy because why the hell would I care if he graduate from "school". I asked him with a look of disbelief on my face, "college?" (and this is the best part) He said "NO" and proceeded to say some reform school or something. Pretty funny. THEN he says "I'm an $80,000 a year man, I'm an engineer." The look on my face said Yeah sure buddy, that's great. I held my tongue and got him out of my line ASAP--End of story. I told my boss about it, and she said the next time any customer uses any swear words towards me, she will kick them out of the store. I kinda can't wait till the next customer swears at me..I'm ready now.
I found the funniest site tonight: www.retail-sucks.com It made me feel a lot better knowing I'm not alone. Only 5 more months till I graduate from COLLEGE and can get out of retail!!!!!!!!!!!

2004 MeMe


1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Stayed at a job for more than 6 months, worked out consistently for more than a month, stopped yo-yo dieting, met my weight/fitness goals the healthy way, got on the Dean's list my senior year in college.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yeah I lost the weight I wanted. Some goals for 2005:
-do as well as possible in school
-hit the weights hard with my lower body

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no

5. What countries did you visit?
none

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
too many to list

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
none in particular

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
meeting my weight loss goal and getting on the Dean's list
9. What was your biggest failure?
lack of communication with my b/f in early-mid 2004

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
tennis elbow once or twice, migraines, two flues and seemed like I had a cold every other day.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
digital camera

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
mine :)

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
my mother/father/sister

14. Where did most of your money go?
lovely college tuition

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Meeting my goal weight

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Usher's new songs

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
communicated

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
cry

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with the person I love

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
you could say so

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
America's next top model

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not hate, but I dislike a group of people more than I did last year.

26. What was the best book you read?
Bonfires of the Vanities by Tom Wolfe

27. What was your greatest musical (re)discovery?
Usher

28. What did you want and get?
above a 3.5 and I got it.

29. What did you want and not get?
plastic surgery

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Lord of the Rings - Return of the King

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I think I studied for a midterm on my birthday and I turned 22.

32. What one thing would have made the year immeasurably more satisfying?
financial aid

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
athletic and poor

34. What kept you sane?
my hope for a better future

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
none

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
ban of gay marriage

37. Who did you miss?
my boyfriend

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Debbie, former co-worker. She was awesome.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Do everything you can to not end up working in retail, especially in a large volume store that mostly caters to customers on the poverty line.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"She's more than a pretty face"