Kryptonite :nod:

I'm facing my demons.:bang:

Actually, the "craving" has passed at least temporarily.

I'm facing my demons.:bang:

Actually, the "craving" has passed at least temporarily.

I'm craving some pasta in the fridge. I won't eat it if you don't eat cake:spaz:

I'm being taunted by images of chocolate cake and martinis.... olives.... :drool:

I hope you all faced your demons and conquered your cravings successfully!:flex:
I didn't.:lol:

I'm being taunted by images of chocolate cake and martinis.... olives.... :drool:

I hope you all faced your demons and conquered your cravings successfully!:flex:
I didn't.:lol:


Neither did I. :( And for no good reason. I think I went into sabatoge mode.

I'm craving some pasta in the fridge. I won't eat it if you don't eat cake:spaz:

I didn't eat the cake or the candy. How did the pasta fare?

I'm being taunted by images of chocolate cake and martinis.... olives.... :drool:

I hope you all faced your demons and conquered your cravings successfully!:flex:
I didn't.:lol:

Cravings pass. I learned that the hardest way from quitting smoking. I buried myself in learning HTML and soon forgot all about it.

Neither did I. :( And for no good reason. I think I went into sabatoge mode.

:spank:

You naughty boy. I can relate.:o

I have a wedding to attend tomorrow. I'll be naughty. :spaz:

:spank:

You naughty boy. I can relate.:o

I have a wedding to attend tomorrow. I'll be naughty. :spaz:

I hope you have a fun time at the wedding.

I hope you have a fun time at the wedding.

Getting the kids ready for the babysitter and the sleepover now.:spaz:

Quick update. Gotta roll! I weighed in this morning as opposed to tomorrow because of the wedding today. I am down to 215.5 and my waist is down 1/4". We are trending.

I didn't eat the cake or the candy. How did the pasta fare?

Nice work:tucool: My dad ate the pasta, I had chicken salad + fish oil:spaz:

Quick update. Gotta roll! I weighed in this morning as opposed to tomorrow because of the wedding today. I am down to 215.5 and my waist is down 1/4". We are trending.

Nice work:nod:

Quick update. Gotta roll! I weighed in this morning as opposed to tomorrow because of the wedding today. I am down to 215.5 and my waist is down 1/4". We are trending.

:tu: keep trending!

What Jedi wrote. (http://forums.johnstonefitness.com/showpost.php?p=498990&postcount=259)

Quick update. Gotta roll! I weighed in this morning as opposed to tomorrow because of the wedding today. I am down to 215.5 and my waist is down 1/4". We are trending.

good job, bg!!! :tucool:

I was really craving a vodka martini last night and I think I know why.

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I fixed that problem for you SpecialK.

ahhhhh....

My journal. Don't terribly feel like posting much in here lately. If that makes me a bad person so be it. I should diagnose myself with a disorder to excuse my lack of posts.

I was really craving a vodka martini last night

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Bump :evil:

Now, if it was a gin martini you'd get my interest.

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I was called out and didn't even know it. :o

I dont think I have seen the inside of a gym since June. :o:o

I allowed myself to get real busy over the summer.:o:o:o

To busy to want to make time for the gym.:o:o:o:o

I was called out and didn't even know it. :o

I dont think I have seen the inside of a gym since June. :o:o

I allowed myself to get real busy over the summer.:o:o:o

To busy to want to make time for the gym.:o:o:o:o

It's Tuesday Nov. 27th 2007 and I am uncomfortable in my own skin. My stomach has grown over the last 5 months and it is no longer flat. My pants are tight. Some I can't fit into. I am still on the merry go round.

Today is Nov. 27th 2007 and on Dec. 4th 2007 I will look back over the last week and see that I have accomplished three workout and that no emotions from boredom to frustration controlled what I ate.

Tuesday - Legs & Shoulders

Thursday - Chest & Biceps

Saturday - Back & Triceps

Today is Nov. 27th 2007 and on Dec. 4th 2007 I will look back over the last week and see that I have accomplished three workout and that no emotions from boredom to frustration controlled what I ate.


:jumping:

Welcome back and I'm looking forward to reading about your progress in your journal.

Welcome back Scott! You're human. Shit happens. You've done it before. You can do it again. :tu:

:jumping:

Welcome back and I'm looking forward to reading about your progress in your journal.

Welcome back Scott! You're human. Shit happens. You've done it before. You can do it again. :tu:

Thanks guys! Glad to be "back".

I jumped back in to fast. Tried to go from 0 to hero overnight last week and failed. I got into shape by slowly replacing bad habits with good and fell out of shape exactly the opposite way.

Just one bad habit to replace this week. I'm replacing TV watching two nights a week with reading and weight lifting. They can float as long as they are not back to back. That is all for now.

Stay sexy!

I jumped back in to fast. Tried to go from 0 to hero overnight last week and failed. I got into shape by slowly replacing bad habits with good and fell out of shape exactly the opposite way.

Sounds familiar. Keep in mind that although you jumped in and made a big spash, you managed to realize that it's a long way to the other side of the shore. Keep swimming no matter how ugly your stroke is and I guarantee you'll get there.

A little bit of weight lifting beat the shit out of me. I ran out of steam real fast and didn't do anything remotely close to the volume I was doing in June. I am getting acclimated. Damn me for not going to the gym for months. I am dreaming of front and overhead squats. :dreamy: Soon!

I like the analogy SpecialK. Thanks.

I need to get out a little to read and post in other journals. Especially those I have had a repore with in the past. I'm such an introvert. :o Or more likely I'm a selfish bastard who likes it when others drop me a line but is too lazy to go out and return the favor. :spank:

Soon!Soon! :nod:

But here's a tip: it's easier to lift weights in front of the TV than with a book in your hand. :nod:

A little bit of weight lifting beat the shit out of me. I ran out of steam real fast and didn't do anything remotely close to the volume I was doing in June. I am getting acclimated. Damn me for not going to the gym for months. I am dreaming of front and overhead squats. :dreamy: Soon!

You'll get there.

I'm working my way back to being able to workout like I was before the knee problem. It's frustrating, but motivating in an odd way as well.

A little bit of weight lifting beat the shit out of me. I ran out of steam real fast and didn't do anything remotely close to the volume I was doing in June. I am getting acclimated. Damn me for not going to the gym for months. I am dreaming of front and overhead squats. :dreamy: Soon!

I like the analogy SpecialK. Thanks.

I need to get out a little to read and post in other journals. Especially those I have had a repore with in the past. I'm such an introvert. :o Or more likely I'm a selfish bastard who likes it when others drop me a line but is too lazy to go out and return the favor. :spank:

since june? well yeah you couldn't pull the same volume. bejesus, bg.

and it's rapport, you goober. :whistle:

and it's rapport, you goober. :whistle:

:lol:

Look at it this way. Instead of being disappointed that you can't lift as much as you did back in June when you were hitting the weights on a regular basis look at it as an affirmation that all the hard work you put in truly did have a positive impact on your strength and well being.

And as long as you put in a similar effort the same thing will happen this time around.

:lol:

Look at it this way. Instead of being disappointed that you can't lift as much as you did back in June when you were hitting the weights on a regular basis look at it as an affirmation that all the hard work you put in truly did have a positive impact on your strength and well being.

And as long as you put in a similar effort the same thing will happen this time around.

:nod:

Fact: Tonights advent calendar surprise was a little chocolate Christmas tree. :claphigh:

Hey bg, glad to hear you're back at it, even if it is baby steps. At least you're on your way again. :tu:

Hey bg, glad to hear you're back at it, even if it is baby steps. At least you're on your way again. :tu:

Thanks CG! :)

So its been two weeks now and I have done as I said I would. It's time to add something else in. For next week I will be changing something related to the self destructive eating patterns I have slipped back into.

Right now I am thinking of getting back into a sit down breakfast every morning. I eat breakfast everyday but most of the time it has eroded into a whole wheat bagel and a coffee in the car on the way to work. That's OK in a pinch but it's not enough food to start the day.

Doing so will also help control over eating at night when I tackle that.










again.

I eat breakfast everyday but most of the time it has eroded into a whole wheat bagel and a coffee in the car on the way to work. That's OK in a pinch but it's not enough food to start the day.It might be more calories than you realize, and it's probably jump-starting your hunger later on. Can you prepare some meals ahead of time?

I've been eating about 350 calories worth of eggs and turkey ham for breakfast for the past two mornings, and it is filling me up SO much more than 400 calories of toast, peanut butter and banana. I used to be starving by 11:00, now if I'm not watching the clock, 12:30 could pass without me feeling like eating again. :p

Hard boiled eggs would be nice. I also recommend crustless quiches baked in muffin tins as a nice portable food. You could bake a batch of 12, keep them in the freezer, defrost 4 or 5 of them in the morning and wrap them in foil to keep warm in the car.

Thanks CG! :)

So its been two weeks now and I have done as I said I would. It's time to add something else in. For next week I will be changing something related to the self destructive eating patterns I have slipped back into.

Right now I am thinking of getting back into a sit down breakfast every morning. I eat breakfast everyday but most of the time it has eroded into a whole wheat bagel and a coffee in the car on the way to work. That's OK in a pinch but it's not enough food to start the day.

Doing so will also help control over eating at night when I tackle that.










again.

Hey bad!

Good to see you back :whistle:

On a serious note. I went through simular thing... although I still worked out (on and off though) over the summer, my diet sucked (eating full tub of Haagen Daaz at 11pm AFTER having half a Nachos and cheesecake at Montanas earlier was not unheard of).
It took few attempts for me to get back on track.

Find something that you really enjoy eating for breakfast (that is a healthy choice of course). Something that you look forward to.
Eating something good and healthy for breakfast sets the mood for the whole day.

:gl:

Hey bad!

Good to see you back :whistle:

Find something that you really enjoy eating for breakfast (that is a healthy choice of course). Something that you look forward to.
Eating something good and healthy for breakfast sets the mood for the whole day.

:gl:

I agree with Maya on this one. I've found that eating something that's easy to make and something I like will set the mood/bar for the rest of the day. 5 egg whites, tbsp. peanut butter, and a whole grapefruit has been my staple for like ever. BTW, I occasionally add a tbsp. of salsa on the eggs. :tu:

Happy New Year Bad!!

Happy New Year Bad!!

Happy New Year Maya!

Thanks for you input everyone. Breakfast has been a go some days and on those days I do feel better all around.

Sadly, it's time to take down the tree and put the holidays behind me. On a positive note it is a new year and I did many of the things I set out to do in 2007 and other things I did halfway.

The main focus for me at the start of this year is to not let myself peter out physically half way through the year like I did last year. I got in over my head on a couple projects in 2007 and let other things slip as a result.

I'm not consistent enough yet with the gym and breakfast. Consequently before I add in another goal I need to hammer that nail home.

Today is a great day!

I'm not consistent enough yet with the gym and breakfast. Consequently before I add in another goal I need to hammer that nail home.

Sadly, still not there yet. I fucking hate myself. edit: No I don't. I am just angry at myself.

No post about doing better today. No lies to myself about tomorrow. Where has my self control gone? Why is it that I no longer have the drive to do the things I don't want to do even though I will be so much better for it. Those things don't take ridiculous amounts of time or energy to accomplish. They do however take more time and energy than watching TV or dicking around on the computer.

It's not that I have been getting nothing done. It's just that it takes me too long to do today what should have been finished yesterday.

I am not trying to throw a pity party here and I am sorry if it comes across that way. I am trying to begin to get my thoughts together. I'm going to continue this off-line in a notebook where I can cross things out and streamline my thoughts about this so they are not flying at me from every which direction. The pages get messy brainstorming into a coherent thought and I can't replicate that on a message board.

I should be going to the gym tonight but the couch seems so much more hospitable. :o

It's pretty aparent that you don't want it badly enough. There are things you want more.

Could you find a way to improve your reward system? (Or increase your punishment. :evil:)

The people with the greatest success usually reached a point where they were completely disgusted with themselves. (So there's hope; you're almost there.:p) As well, they are working towards a specific measurable goal, often with a reward at the end. Posting dramatic before and after pictures, to bask in the glory of praise seems to work very well for lots and lots of people here. :nod:

It's pretty aparent that you don't want it badly enough. There are things you want more.

Could you find a way to improve your reward system? (Or increase your punishment. :evil:)

The people with the greatest success usually reached a point where they were completely disgusted with themselves. (So there's hope; you're almost there.:p) As well, they are working towards a specific measurable goal, often with a reward at the end. Posting dramatic before and after pictures, to bask in the glory of praise seems to work very well for lots and lots of people here. :nod:

You are 100% correct in that I don't want it as badly as I want something else but I am not totally clear on what that is yet. Whatever it is I am currently substituting a "life of leisure" that I can't maintain.

I always think I know better when it comes to goal setting. I am not sure I have ever seriously made a strict plan with dates etc. nevermind following one through even though I have paid for courses that incorporate exactly that.

I always meander to a destination that is not totally clear so I never feel I accomplish anything worthwhile. That's not the case but I am not getting that type of feedback.

You seem to have gotten me started reflecting. Thanks. :)

I always meander to a destination that is not totally clear so I never feel I accomplish anything worthwhile.

Are you still a nonsmoker? :confused:

As always Guava makes some very good points.


I'm reading frustration, not pity party. Most of us get sidetracked at some point and it's easy to continue along that path as it insidiously becomes a more ingrained habit so I think you have a lot of company. The question becomes what are you going to do about it?


Scott, it may be a situation where you really don't want the results that you think you do or are not prepared to put in the effort to achieve them. Only you can decide, but assuming the latter and that the whole thing just seems overwhelming, may I suggest that you identify one or two areas that you can make immediate and changes that will yield positive results? Actually you already have. Breakfast and going to the gym. Admittedly the second is more of a commitment than the first, so start the positivity flowing by making the effort to eat a decent breakfast every morning. It's not very difficult or time consuming. C'mon how long does it take to have a bowl of Go Lean Kashi? Five minutes, at most. Set you alarm five minutes earlier than it presently is and whoala, you're on your way.


As for the gym, figure out a doable plan; to start maybe something scaled back from what you were doing last year and then go that first day. There'll be a decisive moment when you either go or revert to what you've been doing lately, so just do it. Rinse and repeat and within a week you've gotten some positive momentum.


I'm not trying to minimize the effort it takes to get back on track and sustain it. My intent is only to point out some IMHO easy wasy to right the ship. Good luck!

Edit: I see that in between my reading the post that I responded to you have already chimed in. Sorry if some of the above seems redundant because of that.

Are you still a nonsmoker? :confused:

That's exactly what I mean. I never "feel" I have accomplished anything.

Yes, I am. I do smoke when drinking which is about once a month but cigarettes and nicotine are no longer my false idol.

As always Guava makes some very good points.

She's good at that. :nod:


I'm reading frustration, not pity party. Most of us get sidetracked at some point and it's easy to continue along that path as it insidiously becomes a more ingrained habit so I think you have a lot of company. The question becomes what are you going to do about it?


Scott, it may be a situation where you really don't want the results that you think you do or are not prepared to put in the effort to achieve them. Only you can decide, but assuming the latter and that the whole thing just seems overwhelming, may I suggest that you identify one or two areas that you can make immediate and changes that will yield positive results? Actually you already have. Breakfast and going to the gym. Admittedly the second is more of a commitment than the first, so start the positivity flowing by making the effort to eat a decent breakfast every morning. It's not very difficult or time consuming. C'mon how long does it take to have a bowl of Go Lean Kashi? Five minutes, at most. Set you alarm five minutes earlier than it presently is and whoala, you're on your way.


As for the gym, figure out a doable plan; to start maybe something scaled back from what you were doing last year and then go that first day. There'll be a decisive moment when you either go or revert to what you've been doing lately, so just do it. Rinse and repeat and within a week you've gotten some positive momentum.


I'm not trying to minimize the effort it takes to get back on track and sustain it. My intent is only to point out some IMHO easy wasy to right the ship. Good luck!

I started writing during lunch today and incorporated some of your thoughts. You guys helped me tremendously today to get the proverbial ball rolling with my thought process and gave me some really good things to think about.

Edit: I see that in between my reading the post that I responded to you have already chimed in. Sorry if some of the above seems redundant because of that.

No sir! I value your opinion and always appreciate it when you share it with me.

So tell us, did the couch or gym win tonight?

:evil:

So tell us, did the couch or gym win tonight?

:evil:


:lol:

It was not the couch. Life happens and tonight I didn't have the time for the gym either. The most important thing that I could do today was visit my Mom in the hospital.

:lol:

It was not the couch. Life happens and tonight I didn't have the time for the gym either. The most important thing that I could do today was visit my Mom in the hospital.

:tu:

:lol:

It was not the couch. Life happens and tonight I didn't have the time for the gym either. The most important thing that I could do today was visit my Mom in the hospital.

Life does happen and there's no doubt in my mind that you made the right decision to visit your mother. I hope whatever the reason that she's in is minor and that she'll be discharged and fully recovered very shortly.

Life does happen and there's no doubt in my mind that you made the right decision to visit your mother. I hope whatever the reason that she's in is minor and that she'll be discharged and fully recovered very shortly.

Thanks Paul. Me too.

Quick story. An amazing experience I had the good fortune of being a part of.

I went to a wake on Friday night. (Not my Mothers. She is home as of Friday night.) Wifes great aunt. Run of the mill old lady wake. Constant slow flow of mourners. I never met her and she had been in a home for a long time but I was there for my wife and to pay respects.

There was an old woman in the receiving line. She is old enough that everyone ignores her. She is nested in betwen two of the plaid printed couches. The tan rug coordinates perfectly and the melancholy tone of the room resides over everything and everyone.

It is obvious this woman has no idea where she is or why all the people are gathered here for a heavy hearted event. The wheelchair she is slumped over in is hospital issue. This wake is likely the most happening night on the town that she has had since the nineties. I feel awful for her.

The end of the night is here and her most direct relatives are paying their last respect. No way I am walking out now. Tears are flowing, a nearly empty box of of kleenex is being passed around and the only dry eyes in the house are mine.

The kneeler is pulled aside so it sits directly in front of the flowers that proudly display "Mother". The old lady is wheeled up right in front of the mahogany coffin. She has no idea where she is or who is in that box.

"That's my sister. She looks just like her father," she says. From there everything she said was in Slovac, or maybe it was Polish. The language didn't matter. What she said didn't matter.

The emotion in her voice rang true. I cried. I was touched. I am touched. Permanently.