Stay tuned................................ It's coming. Big changes are on the horizon. If you forgot about me search "tankhead's journey" and anything "tankhead"

Stay tuned. :madpimp:

About 12 more days. New start. New Life. New start on life. Though this has been an extrememly difficult decision, I have chosen to leave my wife, her lies, and her alcohol "problem" and let it go. I realize that things will never change and there is nothing I can do about it to change that reality. We have sold our home, I have rented an apartment and will move in on the 8th of November and will not be totally settled in until the end of that weekend. I have a few goals that I will list. I am excited, scarred, anxious, and hopeful that this is the best thing for my children and myself mental health. It took a lot for me to conclude this marriage but if you look back in my other journals it explains about .05% of everything that has taken place over the last 15 years while being with her. With that I will be making a journal about a healthy new start on my soon 40th year of life.

I am getting very excited about my new life. The hardest thing for me is knowing that my beautiful daughters will not be with me everyday. I raised them by myself three days a week while my wife was out working as a flight attendant. It will be difficult but I will overcome and be the great father that I have been.
As far as fitness goals:
I am going to decide if I want to train for a bodybuilding show. It will be my first show ever and I figure that I will definately have the time. so I will weigh the benefits to this and decide when I move out if I have what it takes to do this.
I am very excited that I have been "hired' to be in a local alternative rock band. I am a drummer and have been playing the drums (self taught) since I was 13 years old. We play our first gig this friday and I have many family and friends coming out to support me. Very exciting.

Just about time. I will start the training and nutrition journal this Monday. I will be ordering my Whey protein isolate from all the whey and will be shopping at BJ's on Sunday. My family is helping me move in and I will have the kids that whole weekend. My sister is supposed to be making dinner at my house for everyone and my brother and brother in law will be helping me move the big stuff. My friend will also be helping me move in the day before. Most of my meals will again be similar to the Cut Diet. cup of veggies for at least 3-4 of the five to six meals and at least 6 oz of protein for each meal with a healthy fat. I also will be supplementing Sesamin for my BP and Xtend for mega dosing on amino acids throughout the day, of course there will be a multi vitamin. Cardio is going to be 30 minutes prior to lifting in the mornings and on the days I can not lift in the mornings I will do HIIT for no more than 20 minutes. I will be mountain biking on the weekends and will add some carbs on the weekends for the longer rides. I am getting very excited about this chance for change. That is all for now. Oh yeah my band kicked ass and rocked the house Friday night. I will post pics of gig next week.

Well I am moved in to my new place. It has two bedrooms, one and a half beds. My whole family helped me move in and then had a great dinner prepared for the hard working men of the family. I kept my two beautifull girls over the weekend and they left about four hours ago. I cooked my chicken, jogged for 30 minutes and then did chest. I have been eating veggies, protein, and healthy fat for the first three meals and will be eating a few more meals. I have to order some Extend and a few other supps online. I have definately noticed a level of peace from being away from her. I am starting to see things alittle clearer. My mother told me that this would happen. Here are a few shots of the gig last week

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Having a really hard time lately with everything. I really do need to get on with things. I keep delaying getting in shape. Last week started well but by the end off the week I just fell out of it. I need to begin the healthy new me now that I am separated but I am having a hard time. I guess it really is one day at a time.

About 12 more days. New start. New Life. New start on life. Though this has been an extrememly difficult decision, I have chosen to leave my wife, her lies, and her alcohol "problem" and let it go. I realize that things will never change and there is nothing I can do about it to change that reality. We have sold our home, I have rented an apartment and will move in on the 8th of November and will not be totally settled in until the end of that weekend. I have a few goals that I will list. I am excited, scarred, anxious, and hopeful that this is the best thing for my children and myself mental health. It took a lot for me to conclude this marriage but if you look back in my other journals it explains about .05% of everything that has taken place over the last 15 years while being with her. With that I will be making a journal about a healthy new start on my soon 40th year of life.

Tank, I'm going to stick my nose all up your business here.

If you wife is an alcoholic, maybe you should petition for primary custody?

:gl:

Tank, I'm going to stick my nose all up your business here.

If you wife is an alcoholic, maybe you should petition for primary custody?

:gl:

Well, does she lose control in social situations and ends up embarrasing me, throws up, passes out on me during relations. Yes.
Is she drunk all the time, can't keep a job, not a good mother, NO.
She has been to counseling for her drinking "problem" and her lying about finances. All I know is that I had had enough and am getting on with my life right now. we will be separated for a while and then go from there.


went to the gym this morning, did 22 min cardio, and then did legs. single leg step ups. sldl with dumbells, and walking lunges with weight. coffee
Extend while at the gym
4 egg whites
3 egg yolks
1 cup of spinanch
tomato sauce.