Anyone here have or had an eating disorder?

Today after a hardcore cheat of 2 boxes of mac and cheese, an extra 2000 calories, ive been contemplating throwing it up for the first time in my life. Normally i wouldent care but today i just feel so disgusted for eating crap and now i feel disgusted for thinking about throwing it up.

I dont want to become a bulimic.

I have felt that once or twice, but felt it because I wanted to get rid of the nauseous feeling of eating way too much, especially when I wasn't used to eating much junk food. I've had a moment of feeling on the verge of eating disorder when binging once on candy bars like a pirhana when I was really deep into my last cut.

Most bullemics, I believe, know that they're going to throw up their food before they start eating, which I'm sure wasn't the case with you. Don't worry, it's a normal reaction to feeling disgustingly full.

I felt the same thing Saturday night, but it was definitely because I overdosed on Chinese food, and the combination of trying to sleep on my stomach and having it crammed so full even hours later left me feeling horribly nauseous.

If you're consciously thinking of throwing something up because you feel like it would be a good way to get rid of the calories, I'd say get some preemptive therapy. If wish you could throw up to relieve the horrible physical discomfort of a cheat day, I wouldn't worry so much. It's all part of the crappy transitional phase where your stomach has shrunk due to all of those small, frequent meals, yet your mind is still programmed to pig out!

You're not alone, I've experienced this too once in a while, but it's not considered yet as an eating disorder. But just don't make a habit out of it. Eating disorders have many symptoms, and we can have 2-3 similiar symptoms, but it doesn't automatically categorized us having that eating disorder.

Eating disorders have very little to do with food, and everything to do with control. A bulemic generally throws up not to stay a certain size, but because they feel this is the only control they can exercise in their lives. By the same token, the other eating disorders also fall into that catagory.

Considering that this is the first time you are considering it, and the fact that you are is based on feeling yucky after a big cheat day - you fall into the "remember this feeling" box instead. This is an excellent opportunity for you to mark the feeling of how eating like this makes you feel, and to remember it next time you are faced with the opportunity and exercise restraint instead ;) . This is more "aversion therapy" than anything else.

Hope ya took some tums!