This is my first entry. I've gained almost forty pounds and I hate my body. I'm five nine and a half and I weigh ugh 185. My dad died over the summer and I have not been taking very good care of myself. I used to be an athlete and much thinner. My friends and family give me a hard time about the weight i've gained. It seems like if i had never been thinner no one would say a word. It's like I know they are joking but it bothers me. I want to get fit again for me. I miss wearing cute clothes and having energy. The thing is it's been so long since I've gone to the gym. I've forgotten everything. I smoke now (trying to quit) so the cardio machines are a nightmare now. I've strated eating better and today I am going back to the gym. Not looking forward to it, but I want this so badly. I just feel really intimidated. Does that sound familiar to anyone? Anyway hopefully I'll get through it. I know I have to do this I just wish i had the confidence that i used to have.

Alrighty, so i managed to stick with eating heathy and went to the gym yesterday and today. It had been a long time. I actually got on a free elliptical machine and thought it was out of order I did this on another one until I remembered you have to peddle to get it going. After that mess I actually got down to it. I ran two miles today and did another two on the elliptical. Plan on throwing in some strength training next week. Altough I still resemble Bridget jones in that movie when she falls off the excercise bike I am going to keep going. Anyone here know about heart rates? I guess mine is suppossed to be like 125, but it's more like 150-165 depending. I tried slow down to get it where i wanted it to be (125) but then I wasn't sweating. Anyone have any idea about how that works. If so let me know. Gotta go have to wake my butt up at eight to go back tommorow. And even if I'm tired and have eye krispies... I'm still going!!!!! ;)
c.c.

Yeay, I made it to one week already!!!! I have been drinking tons of water and going to the gym for an hour a day. I have also began eating more and most importantly, better. I have tons more energy now and I feel fab. :db: :db: Yesterday I went out with some friends and had a treat day. I had a few martini's and well... lets just say todays workout will be a challenge :d_eek: hopefully I will see results soon. Going to start strength training today. :bb:

Congrats! I think the first week is one of the hardest things to do :claplow:

Congrats! I think the first week is one of the hardest things to do :claplow:
Thank you so much!!!!!! you rock!!!
O.k, had the office "holiday" party and woke up with montser hangover and slight recollection of smooching my boss. :o I know I know. Anyway missed two days and got back into it today. Have still managed to drink water throughout the day . Have been eating well and resumed hour of cardio. feeling much better. I can run now... fast even. Must quit gross ciggies it make cardio waaaaaay harder. Big big fan of elliptical machine.
obviously will refrain from parties this weekend because I overdid it. Bought super-cute shirt from gap. plan to flounce around in it by march. Also big fan of Special K with berries. Courtney thorne Smith is on the box, its so random. Anyway will check in tommorow because I have been slouching off lately. P.S.- my boss is cute but I don't like him like that. :p

:o woo, haven't checked in in a bit. Well lets see.. I have slacked a little bit, I think all the snow made going to the gym a pain in the butt. I now weigh 170 pounds. I lost fifteen but I have to redevelop my discipllne. My friends have noticed the weight loss already. I have a trip to Vegas in may, so it's back to the gym for me! :mad: Mad at myself for not keeping up with things, but there is always tommorow!!!!! Will check in more. Hopefully I will have some good news soon. :nod:

(subscribing) just popping in to say keep it up!

:o woo, haven't checked in in a bit. Well lets see.. I have slacked a little bit, I think all the snow made going to the gym a pain in the butt. I now weigh 170 pounds. I lost fifteen but I have to redevelop my discipllne. My friends have noticed the weight loss already. I have a trip to Vegas in may, so it's back to the gym for me! :mad: Mad at myself for not keeping up with things, but there is always tommorow!!!!! Will check in more. Hopefully I will have some good news soon. :nod:

WOW! 15 lbs is awesome! I weigh 177, was 184, then 175 and I want to be 150. I'm 33, how old are you? I have a tough time sticking to getting to the gym everyday. I usually do treadmill, but I love the elliptical too. I do lift weights 3 times per week, well,' I'm supposed to! KEep up the good work!!!! ps..My blog is 'ginacop needs to lose 30 lbs'

Trust me... I need the support. Has this ever happened to anyone? You go to the gym, full speed ahead, eat well drink less and feel fab. Then one day you skip the gym (for whatever reason) then you skip another day.. and it's like three weeks later. Oh where oh where has my motivation gone? I made this promise to myself to get back into shape and I intend to keep it. I am 28, altough I decided when I turned 26 to stay that age forever. ;) Anyone have any stories or ideas on how to get back into the swing of things? My sister is a nurse and keeps saying that after 30, it's way harder to lose weight. I'm too fat to be skinny but too skinny to be fat. It's the wierd grey area where plus size is too big and yet really cute clothes are too small. :confused: Thanks again for your support I really appreciate it. :d_wink:

Congrats on loosing 15 pounds. We all struggle with lack of motivation sometimes, I know I certainly do. I'll be checking your journal for more progress in the future. Don't disappoint me by not posting your results, because I know you'll have some!

-Mason

Trust me... I need the support. Has this ever happened to anyone? You go to the gym, full speed ahead, eat well drink less and feel fab. Then one day you skip the gym (for whatever reason) then you skip another day.. and it's like three weeks later. Oh where oh where has my motivation gone? I made this promise to myself to get back into shape and I intend to keep it. I am 28, altough I decided when I turned 26 to stay that age forever. ;) Anyone have any stories or ideas on how to get back into the swing of things? My sister is a nurse and keeps saying that after 30, it's way harder to lose weight. I'm too fat to be skinny but too skinny to be fat. It's the wierd grey area where plus size is too big and yet really cute clothes are too small. :confused: Thanks again for your support I really appreciate it. :d_wink:

It happens to me all the time! That is why I'm still heavy! I have made a promise to myself, not to miss a day (starting March 20) until April 20th. So far, so good. Post pictures of yourself the way you want to look, next to a picture of yourself the way you are now. When I'm on the cardio machines, I put a magazine with a motivational picture, to keep me pumping harder and longer! Your sister is SO right :( I used to drop weight in a few days, I was always 115-125 and now I'm struggling to get under 170 :mad: Do it now girl, do it NOW! :tu:

O :d_wink: .k. I will admit, I have strayed far away from the gym. I still have the fifteen off. Now that summer is here, I need to suck it up and go back. A trainer that comes into my bar offered to help me get back into the swing of things. Yeay!!! :D :D I have a wedding on the beach in october so that will be my goal date. Still 170 want to be 150 by then. I go back tommorow!!!!!! :db: :bb: :mad: wish me luck. Lord knows I need it.

165 party people. Granted I'm still rocking the little beer belly, but i'll take it. I want to start swimming and then i remember that the bathing suit is my sworn mortal enemy. I am trying really hard to remember not to skip meals. Breakfast is the hardest because if I skip it, then I can sleep late. So yeah, I still need to get my but in the gym more often but, I am down 20 pounds. Lordy! It feels good. People keep telling me I lost weight (at least once a day-not kidding) I want to tone up and have a nice flat stomache, must talk to a trainer about that. :d_smile:

Oh Lordy
So ummmmmmm, I somehow managed to gain six pounds (Damn you delicious Guinness) Today marks two months until my 29th birthday and I am not going to be fat for it. Starting tommorow I am going to go for it. As a present to myself (I can't believe I'm doing this) I am quitting smoking. Hopefully that won't put any extra weight on. I'm fired up and ready to do this once and for all. :mad: Watch out fat, I'm comin' and I'm bringing hell with me. :nod:

:bang: ok, it's been a while, i know. My weight has gone up and down. I've come back to get back on track. I joined a better gym today with my friend Julie. I feel like I am ready to start treating myself better and to become more realistic. I am currentlly um 175:moon: not good. I feel ready for this challenge. I really did quit smoking but as a result, I am getting large and in charge. So two years later, I am back and ready to finish what I started. Hopefully I will be more consistent this time. Wish me luck. If anyone has any words of advice feel free.